I have to put this on hold.
Being unemployed my life has no schedule and I'm struggling endlessly to get some routine in my world. So my diet is off and my emotions are on a roller coaster.
I will start back up at 50 when I get a job and can actually feel that there is some order to my days...I'm sorry everyone. This shouldn't take too long.
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Sunday, June 5, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
50
failing... today was terrible
my eating disorder took over and I've been binging all day. My emotional stress got the best of me and I allowed myself to just eat until that hurt more than other stuff. I'm at a low. I hate it. I am not being nice to myself because I can't love myself when all I see myself doing is ugly.
I started to fall in love with a man who is the opposite of whom I ever saw myself falling for... and just like every guy I've ever met, out came the "I'm not ready" talk. FUCK!!!! Seriously, it's not fair to tell somebody you love them but you're scared and pull a 180. We all have hardships in our lives... but it's also an important piece of living successfully that we each find the balance we need. When you meet somebody you can see yourself growing old with, who makes you smile every time you catch their eye contact...how can you turn away from them? How can you bring yourself to say that you're willing to let them go, watch them date other people...can he really expect me to think that someday down the line, when he's "ready" that I'll be willing to put myself at risk of this same thing again?! What if we do start something down the line... will there be another time after that where he puts on the breaks and pushes me away?!
I hurt.
My stomach hurts.
I have been eating poorly and not working out... I binged terribly today. I need somebody...I need help from a friend. I need an encouraging hand and I don't know where to reach to find such a thing.
Half way through my challenge and I've dug myself into a hole.
Ouch.
my eating disorder took over and I've been binging all day. My emotional stress got the best of me and I allowed myself to just eat until that hurt more than other stuff. I'm at a low. I hate it. I am not being nice to myself because I can't love myself when all I see myself doing is ugly.
I started to fall in love with a man who is the opposite of whom I ever saw myself falling for... and just like every guy I've ever met, out came the "I'm not ready" talk. FUCK!!!! Seriously, it's not fair to tell somebody you love them but you're scared and pull a 180. We all have hardships in our lives... but it's also an important piece of living successfully that we each find the balance we need. When you meet somebody you can see yourself growing old with, who makes you smile every time you catch their eye contact...how can you turn away from them? How can you bring yourself to say that you're willing to let them go, watch them date other people...can he really expect me to think that someday down the line, when he's "ready" that I'll be willing to put myself at risk of this same thing again?! What if we do start something down the line... will there be another time after that where he puts on the breaks and pushes me away?!
I hurt.
My stomach hurts.
I have been eating poorly and not working out... I binged terribly today. I need somebody...I need help from a friend. I need an encouraging hand and I don't know where to reach to find such a thing.
Half way through my challenge and I've dug myself into a hole.
Ouch.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
51
2x bagel w/PB (one breakfast, one lunch)
1 diet dr. pepper
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unplanned exercise: didn't move my car to walk between various stores
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salad: lettuce
carrots
peas
tuna
fat free miracle whip
vinegar
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1 diet dr. pepper
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unplanned exercise: didn't move my car to walk between various stores
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salad: lettuce
carrots
peas
tuna
fat free miracle whip
vinegar
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Tuesday, May 31, 2011
52
Totally could not sleep last night... so frustrating. Lots to do today and too much in my head I guess, but I'm hoping to catch a nap at some point today so that my metabolism isn't completely shot.
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1 plain bagel
1 1/2 Tbs PB
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another one of ^^
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2 hours hiking Brighton
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1 brat
1 bun
2 tbs sour kraut
mustard
2 handfuls potato chips
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1 cup potato salad
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1 plain bagel
1 1/2 Tbs PB
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another one of ^^
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2 hours hiking Brighton
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1 brat
1 bun
2 tbs sour kraut
mustard
2 handfuls potato chips
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1 cup potato salad
Monday, May 30, 2011
53
Well, my attempt to keep track of what I ate while in the desert was a complete failure... but what I can tell you, is that it was entirely too much CRAP. I'm thinking about not weighing myself this week because I really am about to kick myself into high gear and make this shiz happen.
Today.
2 tortillas
2 Tbs PB
1 tsp honey
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1 high fiber granola bar.
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2 turkey dogs
1 tortilla
lettuce
mustard
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WHY the heck is the gym always closed on holidays?? I mean, come on... we all know everyone eats too much on holidays and especially when the holiday creates a long weekend. This is EXACTLY when people NEED to work out. Pay your employees double time and open the ef up!! Mother truckers.
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1 bag spring greens
fat free dressing
Today.
2 tortillas
2 Tbs PB
1 tsp honey
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1 high fiber granola bar.
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2 turkey dogs
1 tortilla
lettuce
mustard
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WHY the heck is the gym always closed on holidays?? I mean, come on... we all know everyone eats too much on holidays and especially when the holiday creates a long weekend. This is EXACTLY when people NEED to work out. Pay your employees double time and open the ef up!! Mother truckers.
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1 bag spring greens
fat free dressing
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
58
Haven't been to the gym in quite a while, I really need to do that ASAP... but living life has been entirely too much fun. Playing with a new beau and trying to get a new job... there has yet to be a dull moment.
TODAY.
1 tortilla (9:30)
1 Tbs pb
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1 monster absolute zero
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1 shot sailor jerry
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Birthday (tomorrow really) dinner ~
Sushi: 1 1/2 rolls
1 seaweed salad
1 large saporo
Thursday - Monday I'll be disappearing into the desert and most likely won't have any phone service (let alone a charged phone) so I won't be posting. I will attempt to keep a physical journal or what I eat and drink to the best of my ability/convenience, but don't know how well that will go. I'm hoping that my self consciousness of being in a bathing suit and shorts around people I will stay active and limit beer intake to avoid bloating. HAHA... that sounds so lame but it's what I'm thinking...ergo, it's what I'm posting in this blog.
TODAY.
1 tortilla (9:30)
1 Tbs pb
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1 monster absolute zero
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1 shot sailor jerry
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Birthday (tomorrow really) dinner ~
Sushi: 1 1/2 rolls
1 seaweed salad
1 large saporo
Thursday - Monday I'll be disappearing into the desert and most likely won't have any phone service (let alone a charged phone) so I won't be posting. I will attempt to keep a physical journal or what I eat and drink to the best of my ability/convenience, but don't know how well that will go. I'm hoping that my self consciousness of being in a bathing suit and shorts around people I will stay active and limit beer intake to avoid bloating. HAHA... that sounds so lame but it's what I'm thinking...ergo, it's what I'm posting in this blog.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
59
Whoa... lost a few days in there while my life took a new adventure, but I'm not complaining. I've been pretty good with food. At my bbq on Sunday I only had one turkey dog, a few pieces of zuccini and didn't overdo it with chips and salsa. Had a few beers, but mostly just diet dr. pepper. HAHA I'm a dork, ah well. But yeah, life is a little crazy and I'm going to try to do more mobile blogging for this particular blog so that I really am keeping track of all of my food intake.
TODAY.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
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1 tortilla
4 chunks of orange chicken
Greens
Spicy mustard
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GOTTA work on making sure I really am getting my water every day...I've been such a slacker, blaaah. Feeling like I'm really looking better physically, just not so sure if I'm losing any poundage at this point...and THAT is frustrating.
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2/3 chicken breast
peppers, peas, artichoke hearts
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handfull of tortilla chips
salsa
TODAY.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
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1 tortilla
4 chunks of orange chicken
Greens
Spicy mustard
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GOTTA work on making sure I really am getting my water every day...I've been such a slacker, blaaah. Feeling like I'm really looking better physically, just not so sure if I'm losing any poundage at this point...and THAT is frustrating.
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2/3 chicken breast
peppers, peas, artichoke hearts
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handfull of tortilla chips
salsa
Saturday, May 21, 2011
62
Didn't snowboard today... woke up with CRAZY cramps and just wan't happy about not being able to stand up straight.
TODAY.
3 packets of sugar free oatmeal (9:30)
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1 light string cheese (12)
1 granola bar
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2 coors lights (4pm)
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STARVING!!!!! So I was naughty
1 hot dog (7p)
1 personal bag of jalapeno chips
big salad (not too bad, I didn't eat the cheese and made some light ranch+vinegar dressing)
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TODAY.
3 packets of sugar free oatmeal (9:30)
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1 light string cheese (12)
1 granola bar
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2 coors lights (4pm)
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STARVING!!!!! So I was naughty
1 hot dog (7p)
1 personal bag of jalapeno chips
big salad (not too bad, I didn't eat the cheese and made some light ranch+vinegar dressing)
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Friday, May 20, 2011
63
Was going to go snowboarding today, but Dick Bass (who I affectionately call Cock Trout) decided that Snowbird should be CLOSED today!!! MOTHER TRUCKER!!!
TODAY.
1 Tortilla
3 slices deli turkey
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1 rockstar recovery
1 coffee
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2 light string cheese (11)
2 cups carrots
1/2 cup dressing
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1/2 cup AllBran (1p)
1 cup natural apple sauce
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1 can chuck light tuna (4p)
1/2 cup frozen pees
2 Tbs fat free miracle whip
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2 light string cheese (5p)
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1 can progresso light soup (6:00)
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2 packages no sugar oatmeal (8:oo)
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GEEZE I ate a lot, seems like it, today... I might have more oatmeal later or maybe 100 calorie pack of popcorn. It being "that time" does make me hungry... but I need to drink more water!!!!
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1 weightwatchers yogurt
1/2 cup blackberries
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon
FUCK I ate so much today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too many snacks. I gotta figure out how to cure my sugar cravings when I'm menstrual because this is ridiculous.
TODAY.
1 Tortilla
3 slices deli turkey
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1 rockstar recovery
1 coffee
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2 light string cheese (11)
2 cups carrots
1/2 cup dressing
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1/2 cup AllBran (1p)
1 cup natural apple sauce
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1 can chuck light tuna (4p)
1/2 cup frozen pees
2 Tbs fat free miracle whip
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2 light string cheese (5p)
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1 can progresso light soup (6:00)
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2 packages no sugar oatmeal (8:oo)
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GEEZE I ate a lot, seems like it, today... I might have more oatmeal later or maybe 100 calorie pack of popcorn. It being "that time" does make me hungry... but I need to drink more water!!!!
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1 weightwatchers yogurt
1/2 cup blackberries
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon
FUCK I ate so much today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too many snacks. I gotta figure out how to cure my sugar cravings when I'm menstrual because this is ridiculous.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
64
another rainy day... and to make things worse, the new job is no more. I came home yesterday crying because I felt so lied to. I go in this morning and they sit me down and say things aren't working out. Ya think?! They lied to me. They made me a sales person making cold calls. I've never done sales in the first place, they told me I'd do that part of the time and no cold calls... so, um, anyhow... MOVING FORWARD. Applying for any/everything I can find right now just so I can get some income and keep looking for the right fit.
TODAY.
1 light string cheese
2 cups steamed broccoli
1/2 cup dressing w/fiber
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15 minutes bike
30 minute Hills Plus on elliptical
1 mile cool down on treadmill
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1 light string cheese (8)
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1 chicken breast (9:30)
3 sun dried half tomatoes
green beans
mushroooms
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4oz black Heart (generic sailor jerry) w/diet dr. pepper
TODAY.
1 light string cheese
2 cups steamed broccoli
1/2 cup dressing w/fiber
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15 minutes bike
30 minute Hills Plus on elliptical
1 mile cool down on treadmill
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1 light string cheese (8)
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1 chicken breast (9:30)
3 sun dried half tomatoes
green beans
mushroooms
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4oz black Heart (generic sailor jerry) w/diet dr. pepper
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
65
TODAY.
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon
1 light string cheese
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4'' subway sandwich -ham, mustard, veggies
turkey & veggies out of another one of these (didn't eat bread, nor cheese)
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flax seed cereal (4:30)
almond milk
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tortilla (6)
w/the usual
2 cups carrots
dressing (no fat, added fiber)
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1/2 cup AllBran
2/3 cup natural apple sauce
1/4 tsp cinnamon
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon
1 light string cheese
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4'' subway sandwich -ham, mustard, veggies
turkey & veggies out of another one of these (didn't eat bread, nor cheese)
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flax seed cereal (4:30)
almond milk
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tortilla (6)
w/the usual
2 cups carrots
dressing (no fat, added fiber)
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1/2 cup AllBran
2/3 cup natural apple sauce
1/4 tsp cinnamon
wednesday weigh-in
Today: 178
@#%$(*#&$*#$(@#)!@#&#)!@*^$!@$_ I'm so frustrated. I don't understand how my "bad days" are putting that much weight back on... I know I overdo it, but it's never on "naughty" foods... this is my period week so that may account for a little bit, but seriously, I'm frustrated and need to re-assess and make some changes!
@#%$(*#&$*#$(@#)!@#&#)!@*^$!@$_ I'm so frustrated. I don't understand how my "bad days" are putting that much weight back on... I know I overdo it, but it's never on "naughty" foods... this is my period week so that may account for a little bit, but seriously, I'm frustrated and need to re-assess and make some changes!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
66
Tortilla (8)
1/2 cheeseless omelet
Apple
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SmartOne (5 pts) (noon)
Yogurt
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Salad (5:15)
Spinach, fat free dressing, chicken, almonds, black beans, tomatoes, sprouts
Small piece of french bread
One strawberry w/chocolate
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Long day at work... 12 hours... definitely wanna hit the gym afterwards, been sitting for entirely too long
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GYM.
30 minutes Hills Plus on elliptical -350 calories
15 minutes on sitting bike -210 calories
3x10 reverse push ups
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2 cups raw carrots
dressing
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Sweet potato (10)
spray butter
1/2 cheeseless omelet
Apple
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SmartOne (5 pts) (noon)
Yogurt
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Salad (5:15)
Spinach, fat free dressing, chicken, almonds, black beans, tomatoes, sprouts
Small piece of french bread
One strawberry w/chocolate
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Long day at work... 12 hours... definitely wanna hit the gym afterwards, been sitting for entirely too long
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GYM.
30 minutes Hills Plus on elliptical -350 calories
15 minutes on sitting bike -210 calories
3x10 reverse push ups
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2 cups raw carrots
dressing
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Sweet potato (10)
spray butter
Monday, May 16, 2011
67
My severe overeating in the past few days has me feeling... BLAAAAAH
I didn't even record all the crap I ate last night because there was just entirely too much to keep track of. Nothing was really "unhealthy" but the amounts that I gobbled down were just uncool. I am losing steam. I really need motivation.
I'm getting my you-know this week, so I'm feeling extra icky... but seriously, in general, I just feel like crap.
I got sunburned yesterday and that makes me NOT want to go workout... my skin is just going to hurt. UGG. I'll go...
TODAY.
Granola bar (8am)
3 plain tortillas
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apple
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salad from walmart (WTF I finally read the health info and the dressing is 450 calories because ONE of those salads is labled as 4.5 servings?!? WTF!!)
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2 tortillas w/spray butter & splenda (technically this favorite treat of mine is zero points)
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GYM.
35 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -425 cal
15 minutes Hill Interval on arc trainer -210
10 minute walking cool down on treadmill
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1 bowl high fiber cereal
almond milk
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half omelet (saving other half for breakfast) [9p]
: 4 egg whites, 1 whole egg, green pepper, red pepper, white mushrooms
2 Tbs ketchup
I didn't even record all the crap I ate last night because there was just entirely too much to keep track of. Nothing was really "unhealthy" but the amounts that I gobbled down were just uncool. I am losing steam. I really need motivation.
I'm getting my you-know this week, so I'm feeling extra icky... but seriously, in general, I just feel like crap.
I got sunburned yesterday and that makes me NOT want to go workout... my skin is just going to hurt. UGG. I'll go...
TODAY.
Granola bar (8am)
3 plain tortillas
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apple
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salad from walmart (WTF I finally read the health info and the dressing is 450 calories because ONE of those salads is labled as 4.5 servings?!? WTF!!)
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2 tortillas w/spray butter & splenda (technically this favorite treat of mine is zero points)
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GYM.
35 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -425 cal
15 minutes Hill Interval on arc trainer -210
10 minute walking cool down on treadmill
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1 bowl high fiber cereal
almond milk
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half omelet (saving other half for breakfast) [9p]
: 4 egg whites, 1 whole egg, green pepper, red pepper, white mushrooms
2 Tbs ketchup
Sunday, May 15, 2011
68
Been eaing too much...when I have nothing to do, I nosh :-(
TODAY
Cereal (9am)
Almond milk
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2 tortillas w/ spray butter, splenda and cinnamon (12)
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Granola bar (12:30)
1 tsp PB
1 1/2 cups red grapes
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Bike ride home from park
Granola bar (3:30p)
2 tsp pb
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Salad (spinach, artichoke hearts, dried pears, broccoli, pecans)
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Saturday, May 14, 2011
69
Been eating a lot lately as I'm not as busy...
This morning.
Half a 3 egg ommlet with mushrooms and cheese
2 pieces of wheat toast lightly buttered
hashbrowns (very dry, not too greasy)
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2 tortillas w/spenda, spray butter & cinnamon (11am)
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GYM.
10 minute warm up Random on sitting bike
25 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -280 calories
leg press
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1 rockstar recovery
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1 tortilla (5pm)
4 slices fat free deli turkey
spinach
mustard & horse radish
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1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
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steamed broccoli & raw carrots (I think I ate my weight haha)
dressing
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24oz soy chai latte
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1 1/2 cups red grapes (9pm)
This morning.
Half a 3 egg ommlet with mushrooms and cheese
2 pieces of wheat toast lightly buttered
hashbrowns (very dry, not too greasy)
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2 tortillas w/spenda, spray butter & cinnamon (11am)
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GYM.
10 minute warm up Random on sitting bike
25 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -280 calories
leg press
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1 rockstar recovery
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1 tortilla (5pm)
4 slices fat free deli turkey
spinach
mustard & horse radish
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1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
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steamed broccoli & raw carrots (I think I ate my weight haha)
dressing
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24oz soy chai latte
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1 1/2 cups red grapes (9pm)
70 ?
Well, Blogger decided to crap out on me for 2 days and I couldn't post anything...
Friday, day 70 I ate too much.. again. a few bad days there
Went snowboarding at the bird for 4 hours, had a pbr on the tram deck... and then had a fish burrito. Didn't eat the whole thing. Dumped it out and ate the protein out of it.
Apple w/PB
a few tortillas
Rockstar recovery... no full record, ugg.
Then I had 2 beers in the evening.
Friday, day 70 I ate too much.. again. a few bad days there
Went snowboarding at the bird for 4 hours, had a pbr on the tram deck... and then had a fish burrito. Didn't eat the whole thing. Dumped it out and ate the protein out of it.
Apple w/PB
a few tortillas
Rockstar recovery... no full record, ugg.
Then I had 2 beers in the evening.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
71
Today is errands and me-time... I need to try hard to avoid just sitting around an noshing because that will get me in trouble.
TODAY.
2 high fiber granola bars (8am)
2 tsp PB
1 apple
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1 tortilla (10:45)
3 slices deli turkey
salsa
spinach
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2 tortillas w/spray butter and cinnamon&splenda (11:30)
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I made meatloaf for dinner and ate like 4 helpings. I need to learn to cook for 2... not 8.
TODAY.
2 high fiber granola bars (8am)
2 tsp PB
1 apple
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1 tortilla (10:45)
3 slices deli turkey
salsa
spinach
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2 tortillas w/spray butter and cinnamon&splenda (11:30)
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I made meatloaf for dinner and ate like 4 helpings. I need to learn to cook for 2... not 8.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
72
This morning's weigh-in made me feel good... but I still need to up my game. This whole "only seeing a lower number every other week" thing isn't ok. I want to see that number drop.
I know I'm building some muscle but I'm just retoning what I already have. We all know I'm already buff enough HAHA. I clearly have another 15 pounds of body fat that I can shed...and I will. I am.
I'm not planning on working out today. It's my last day at my old job!! I have my body wrap today (since yesterday I forgot my clothes). I might go for a walk or something this evening once I get home if it's nice out.
TODAY.
1 tortilla (7:00)
1 Tbs PB
1 tortilla
spray butter, splenda & cinnamon
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1 medium granny smith apple (9:30)
1 high fiber granola bar
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2 light string cheese (11:00)
1 litre water
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Subway salad (12:00)
Greens, veggies
Honey mustard and vinegar (no oil, no fat)
oregano &pepper
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FormoStar body wrap (1:30)
I know I'm building some muscle but I'm just retoning what I already have. We all know I'm already buff enough HAHA. I clearly have another 15 pounds of body fat that I can shed...and I will. I am.
I'm not planning on working out today. It's my last day at my old job!! I have my body wrap today (since yesterday I forgot my clothes). I might go for a walk or something this evening once I get home if it's nice out.
TODAY.
1 tortilla (7:00)
1 Tbs PB
1 tortilla
spray butter, splenda & cinnamon
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1 medium granny smith apple (9:30)
1 high fiber granola bar
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2 light string cheese (11:00)
1 litre water
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Subway salad (12:00)
Greens, veggies
Honey mustard and vinegar (no oil, no fat)
oregano &pepper
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FormoStar body wrap (1:30)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
73
I'm getting anxious... I know 100 days is a lot of time, but I cheated and weighed myself~ NO change!! I'll still weigh myself tomorrow, but ugg. I should really be seeing 1-2lbs a week if I'm doing things right. So, I'm not doing something right =/
I will be drinking at least 2 litres of water daily (not including water consumed during work outs).
I am going to pick back up the Beck Diet Solution and get back to practicing those good habbits:
-sit down to eat
-drink a glass of water before each meal
-write motivation card & read it several times a day
etc
Moved my body wrap to tomorrow because I packed my gym bag this morning and then left it on my bed! So, I'll go home after work to snag my bag...go swoop up my friend who is coming with me to the gym today, and just go work out. Today I need to kick my butt!
I also need to go grocery shopping tonight so that I can, again, fill my house with healthy foods as to avoid random gas station trips pre-snowboarding etc where I end up consuming high-sodium and often fatty foods.
TODAY
1 spoon full of PB
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1 litre of water (11:49am)
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1 can progresso light chowder (1:00pm)
1 red grapefruit
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1 rockstar recovery
1 high fiber granola bar
1 Tbs PB
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GYM: 30 minute Hills Plus on Elliptical -380 calories
15 minute Intervals on arc trainer -210 calories
Obliques and lower abs
1 mile walking cool down (17 minutes) with 10 minutes of 3lb weights doing shoulder and bicep toning
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3 cups carrots
1/2 cup light Caesar dressing w/lots of vinegar
I will be drinking at least 2 litres of water daily (not including water consumed during work outs).
I am going to pick back up the Beck Diet Solution and get back to practicing those good habbits:
-sit down to eat
-drink a glass of water before each meal
-write motivation card & read it several times a day
etc
Moved my body wrap to tomorrow because I packed my gym bag this morning and then left it on my bed! So, I'll go home after work to snag my bag...go swoop up my friend who is coming with me to the gym today, and just go work out. Today I need to kick my butt!
I also need to go grocery shopping tonight so that I can, again, fill my house with healthy foods as to avoid random gas station trips pre-snowboarding etc where I end up consuming high-sodium and often fatty foods.
TODAY
1 spoon full of PB
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1 litre of water (11:49am)
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1 can progresso light chowder (1:00pm)
1 red grapefruit
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1 rockstar recovery
1 high fiber granola bar
1 Tbs PB
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GYM: 30 minute Hills Plus on Elliptical -380 calories
15 minute Intervals on arc trainer -210 calories
Obliques and lower abs
1 mile walking cool down (17 minutes) with 10 minutes of 3lb weights doing shoulder and bicep toning
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3 cups carrots
1/2 cup light Caesar dressing w/lots of vinegar
Monday, May 9, 2011
74
I'm a quarter of the way through my challenge... but I still have a long way to go. 100 days is a pretty long challenge. I know I probably could have really pushed myself to do a challenge like this in a much shorter period of time but I think this more drawn-out process will help to reset my brain with all of the positive habits that need to be part of my regular routine and I will be more likely to continue with the healthy lifestyle well after my 100 days are over.
Yesterday was definitely a personal disappointment - the amount I ate compared to the level of activity for the day was not balanced and so I'm a mad at myself for that. I am not getting my body wrap today due to working late but I will be going tomorrow after work so that I do have my detox before my weekly weigh-in. I'm going to the gym today, but probably not tomorrow (but who knows, tomorrow I might feel like going after my wrap and that would be great, but I'm unsure at this point what my time will look like.)
TODAY.
Beef Jerky (130 calories ~ I need to go shopping, I had it left over from the weekend and didn't have my normal breakfast foods in the house~ I need to shop)
1 Tbs PB
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1 rockstar recovery
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1 litre water
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1 can progresso chicken & wild rice
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1 pear
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GYM:
30 minutes on bike -285 calories
15 minutes on elypitical -180 calories
1/2 mile walking cool down on the treadmill
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pollock fillet cooked in nothing but water from the melting frozen veggies
spices
veggies
sweet potato
1/2 cup mushroom spaghetti sauce
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1 skinny cow ice cream treat
2 glasses of water
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1 bowl high fiber cereal
2/3 cup almond milk
Yesterday was definitely a personal disappointment - the amount I ate compared to the level of activity for the day was not balanced and so I'm a mad at myself for that. I am not getting my body wrap today due to working late but I will be going tomorrow after work so that I do have my detox before my weekly weigh-in. I'm going to the gym today, but probably not tomorrow (but who knows, tomorrow I might feel like going after my wrap and that would be great, but I'm unsure at this point what my time will look like.)
TODAY.
Beef Jerky (130 calories ~ I need to go shopping, I had it left over from the weekend and didn't have my normal breakfast foods in the house~ I need to shop)
1 Tbs PB
-
1 rockstar recovery
-
1 litre water
-
1 can progresso chicken & wild rice
-
1 pear
-
GYM:
30 minutes on bike -285 calories
15 minutes on elypitical -180 calories
1/2 mile walking cool down on the treadmill
-
pollock fillet cooked in nothing but water from the melting frozen veggies
spices
veggies
sweet potato
1/2 cup mushroom spaghetti sauce
-
1 skinny cow ice cream treat
2 glasses of water
-
1 bowl high fiber cereal
2/3 cup almond milk
Sunday, May 8, 2011
75
Woke up SO sore from biking... wow. My butt hurts. Decided it's a hiking day.
2 Tortillas
2 tsp PB
Beef Jerky (120 calories)
1 pear
-
Chorizo scramble @ Jail House Cafe in Moab
-
Hiking in Arches NP (nothing too strenuous, but lots of fun)
-
Raisins & Almonds
1 bag kettle chips (personal size) ~ yeah, Super naughty day... ugg.
1 spicy v8
-
10 chicken nuggets
3oz mushroom spaghetti sauce
-
McFlurry w/All Bran cereal (super high fiber) and fiber powder
Overall a really bad day with food... I over did it. Back to the grind this week...new beginnings and fresh starts. I'm pumped. I had a great weekend.
2 Tortillas
2 tsp PB
Beef Jerky (120 calories)
1 pear
-
Chorizo scramble @ Jail House Cafe in Moab
-
Hiking in Arches NP (nothing too strenuous, but lots of fun)
-
Raisins & Almonds
1 bag kettle chips (personal size) ~ yeah, Super naughty day... ugg.
1 spicy v8
-
10 chicken nuggets
3oz mushroom spaghetti sauce
-
McFlurry w/All Bran cereal (super high fiber) and fiber powder
Overall a really bad day with food... I over did it. Back to the grind this week...new beginnings and fresh starts. I'm pumped. I had a great weekend.
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Woke up in Moab =)
1 Tortilla w/PB
1 pear
small piece of danish (too sweet)
15 miles of mountain biking. 10 miles on the Porcupine Single Track, 5 on the road.
3 pieces of pizza
3 bowls of salad
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10oz bottle apple juice
4oz Yukon Jack
1 Tortilla w/PB
1 pear
small piece of danish (too sweet)
15 miles of mountain biking. 10 miles on the Porcupine Single Track, 5 on the road.
3 pieces of pizza
3 bowls of salad
-
10oz bottle apple juice
4oz Yukon Jack
Friday, May 6, 2011
77
I couldn't fall asleep last night... around 3am my stomach was growling like CRAZY so I decided to get up. I drank a big glass of water but decided I wanted to eat something... so, being the very random-type craving person I am I had:
-another salsa/black bean/spinach/zero point tortilla wrap
-tortilla & 1 tsp PB
I know I'm not working out tonight, but I will be mountain biking tomorrow and sunday (and probably some hiking) so I'm going to pack my food for the weekend carefully and do my best to really be good so that next week's weigh-in shows progress.
Then when I woke up this morning, again I felt EXTREMELY hungry.
3 tortillas
3 tsp PB
1 medium apple
-
I really want to drink a LOT of water today, so my goal is 2 litres while at work. I need to buy more crystal light or the like because it really helps me down water faster....otherwise I'm slow and slack on my water intake.
-
1 litre water
-
1 red plum
-
SmartOne meal (2pts)
-
There have been BOXES of donuts in the break room all flippin day. WHY can't the perks committee ever offer healthy snacks?! Seriously, it's almost painful how badly the smell of that fried dough makes me want to stuff my face...NOT the easiest environment for a recovering o.e. I have don't really well at resisting so far today (one more hour at work to go), but dang... I'm craving sugar!!
-
1 flatOut tortilla
1/3 chicken breast, plain
spinach
1 packet tacotime hot sauce
-
1 bowl fiberPlus cereal
1/2 cup almond milk, unsweetened
1 packet splenda
-
I'll probably have a beer or two tonight
I'm going to be away from my comptuer for a few days but I will be recording the things I eat and posting my food/activity logs when I have internet again!
-another salsa/black bean/spinach/zero point tortilla wrap
-tortilla & 1 tsp PB
I know I'm not working out tonight, but I will be mountain biking tomorrow and sunday (and probably some hiking) so I'm going to pack my food for the weekend carefully and do my best to really be good so that next week's weigh-in shows progress.
Then when I woke up this morning, again I felt EXTREMELY hungry.
3 tortillas
3 tsp PB
1 medium apple
-
I really want to drink a LOT of water today, so my goal is 2 litres while at work. I need to buy more crystal light or the like because it really helps me down water faster....otherwise I'm slow and slack on my water intake.
-
1 litre water
-
1 red plum
-
SmartOne meal (2pts)
-
There have been BOXES of donuts in the break room all flippin day. WHY can't the perks committee ever offer healthy snacks?! Seriously, it's almost painful how badly the smell of that fried dough makes me want to stuff my face...NOT the easiest environment for a recovering o.e. I have don't really well at resisting so far today (one more hour at work to go), but dang... I'm craving sugar!!
-
1 flatOut tortilla
1/3 chicken breast, plain
spinach
1 packet tacotime hot sauce
-
1 bowl fiberPlus cereal
1/2 cup almond milk, unsweetened
1 packet splenda
-
I'll probably have a beer or two tonight
I'm going to be away from my comptuer for a few days but I will be recording the things I eat and posting my food/activity logs when I have internet again!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
my struggle
People ask me why I record everything I eat... why am I doing this.
Well, as you know (if you've been following along) I used to be fat (I'm trying to find more pictures so that I can share). And well, for a long time I had a serious problem. An addiction of sorts. I am, and will always be (as any former addict is), a recovering Compulsive Over Eater.
Back before I lost the 60lbs I joined OA = Over-eaters Anonymous. It works just like any other 12 step program.
Wondering what that's like? Well, ask me sometime...rambling about my obsession with food and eating until it hurts isn't what I want to post here.
So, pairing the strength I gained from learning to conquer my addiction with the Beck approach of combining cognitive therapy with changing the way I eat, worked for me...I reframed my way of thinking and practiced great habbits, which allowed me to find success.
THEN I GOT LAZY (and life was pretty out of whack as I left WI etc but I'll jut own up to my laziness).
Now that I have put my foot down and am piecing the life I WANT together, I have the tools and know what I need to do. I'm doing this on display to the general public because I'm too scared of humiliation to back out when I know people are watching me. So... here I am =)
Here are 2 cool resources:
Overeaters Anonymous
Beck Solution
Well, as you know (if you've been following along) I used to be fat (I'm trying to find more pictures so that I can share). And well, for a long time I had a serious problem. An addiction of sorts. I am, and will always be (as any former addict is), a recovering Compulsive Over Eater.
Back before I lost the 60lbs I joined OA = Over-eaters Anonymous. It works just like any other 12 step program.
Wondering what that's like? Well, ask me sometime...rambling about my obsession with food and eating until it hurts isn't what I want to post here.
So, pairing the strength I gained from learning to conquer my addiction with the Beck approach of combining cognitive therapy with changing the way I eat, worked for me...I reframed my way of thinking and practiced great habbits, which allowed me to find success.
THEN I GOT LAZY (and life was pretty out of whack as I left WI etc but I'll jut own up to my laziness).
Now that I have put my foot down and am piecing the life I WANT together, I have the tools and know what I need to do. I'm doing this on display to the general public because I'm too scared of humiliation to back out when I know people are watching me. So... here I am =)
Here are 2 cool resources:
Overeaters Anonymous
Beck Solution
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I woke up today and was SO hungry... I have no idea why, so I ended up mowing down the 2nd half of my sandwich from last night.
I plan on going to the gym tonight and getting some cardio time in, also planning on doing lower back and tricep toning while I'm there.
TODAY.
1/2 turkey club (from last night without the bread)
FiberOne granola bar
1 medium apple
-
1/2 litre water
1 mango
-
FiberOne granola bar
2 light string cheese
-
GYM: 35 minutes on the elliptical, level 12 -over 400 calories
lower back, obliques and shoulder toning
-
1 litre water
-
3 tortillas
1/2 avacado
1/2 cup black beens
1/3 cup salsa
cilantro
-
vitamin water Zero
I plan on going to the gym tonight and getting some cardio time in, also planning on doing lower back and tricep toning while I'm there.
TODAY.
1/2 turkey club (from last night without the bread)
FiberOne granola bar
1 medium apple
-
1/2 litre water
1 mango
-
FiberOne granola bar
2 light string cheese
-
GYM: 35 minutes on the elliptical, level 12 -over 400 calories
lower back, obliques and shoulder toning
-
1 litre water
-
3 tortillas
1/2 avacado
1/2 cup black beens
1/3 cup salsa
cilantro
-
vitamin water Zero
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
79
I bit disappointed that the #s aren't changing faster for my weigh-ins. Last time I lost a bunch of weight it felt like every week I was SO pumped because I was seeing the digits decrease... but this time is much slower. It's kind of frustrating but I know I'm doing everything I should be-- I just need to pay more attention to details.
From now on I'll be logging what I eat & my activity as it happens throughout the day, rather than list the activity after the food log. This way I can really look at how I'm laying out my day. I will mark where in the daily layout I finish each litre of water as well... this needs to be a big focus for me as I know I tend to get snack-y when I'm dehydrated.
TODAY.
1 FlatOut flatbread/tortilla
2 Tbs PB
1 Rockstar recovery
-
2 light string cheese
-
Street taco salad: meat from 3 chicken tacos (no tortillas) [I ordered 4 but the old lady working is way more stingy than her husband and gave me significantly less meat than I normally get), lots of lettuce, 1 jalapeno, salsa, 2 Tbs pineapple tidbits, cilantro.
-
1 litre of water
-
1 pear
1/2 litre of water
FiberOne granola bar
-
1/2 turkey club sandwich (no mayo) at Fiddler's Elbow
green salad as my side
1 Epic Amber
1 Full Sail Amber
From now on I'll be logging what I eat & my activity as it happens throughout the day, rather than list the activity after the food log. This way I can really look at how I'm laying out my day. I will mark where in the daily layout I finish each litre of water as well... this needs to be a big focus for me as I know I tend to get snack-y when I'm dehydrated.
TODAY.
1 FlatOut flatbread/tortilla
2 Tbs PB
1 Rockstar recovery
-
2 light string cheese
-
Street taco salad: meat from 3 chicken tacos (no tortillas) [I ordered 4 but the old lady working is way more stingy than her husband and gave me significantly less meat than I normally get), lots of lettuce, 1 jalapeno, salsa, 2 Tbs pineapple tidbits, cilantro.
-
1 litre of water
-
1 pear
1/2 litre of water
FiberOne granola bar
-
1/2 turkey club sandwich (no mayo) at Fiddler's Elbow
green salad as my side
1 Epic Amber
1 Full Sail Amber
Wednesday weigh-in
Weight: 177
Same last week... UGG!
I am definitely starting to see & feel my body tightening up and slimming down.
Time to focus on water intake and cutting out fats late in the day (no more pb after dinner)
Same last week... UGG!
I am definitely starting to see & feel my body tightening up and slimming down.
Time to focus on water intake and cutting out fats late in the day (no more pb after dinner)
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
80
Not sure if I'll make it to the gym tonight because I'm going to start training by observing/co-facilitating a group tonight with my new company... but I'm hoping to make it to the gym LATE for at least a little while on the eliptical trainer-- since tomorrow is my weekly weigh-in I really want to try and get a workout in the night before my morning scale-session =)
FOOD.
Breakfast.
FlatOut (flatbread tortilla) w/ 2 Tbs of PB
Snack.
1/2 pink grapefruit
10 saltine crackers
Lunch.
SmartOne meal (2pts)
2 light string cheese
1/2 pink grapefruit.
Snack.
150 calories of beef jerky (after such a long day working I NEEDED protein before hitting the gym)
Dinner.
BIG SALAD. Dark greens, black beans, salsa, 1/2 avacado, 2 Tbs ranch, fiber, vinegar, basil & oregano
Water goal? YES!
ACTIVITY.
Gym. 5 minute bike warm up.
25 minutes Random on sitting bike -200 calories
10 minutes Random on elyptical trainer + 5 minute cool down -150 calories
Unplanned.
Nothing that sticks out today...
FOOD.
Breakfast.
FlatOut (flatbread tortilla) w/ 2 Tbs of PB
Snack.
1/2 pink grapefruit
10 saltine crackers
Lunch.
SmartOne meal (2pts)
2 light string cheese
1/2 pink grapefruit.
Snack.
150 calories of beef jerky (after such a long day working I NEEDED protein before hitting the gym)
Dinner.
BIG SALAD. Dark greens, black beans, salsa, 1/2 avacado, 2 Tbs ranch, fiber, vinegar, basil & oregano
Water goal? YES!
ACTIVITY.
Gym. 5 minute bike warm up.
25 minutes Random on sitting bike -200 calories
10 minutes Random on elyptical trainer + 5 minute cool down -150 calories
Unplanned.
Nothing that sticks out today...
Monday, May 2, 2011
Zero Points
On the old WeightWatchers point system (not the new points plus) I found a lot of ZERO POINT FOODS!! OMG and I love them... points are determined by balancing calories, fat and fiber.
50 calories = 1 point
12 grams of fat = 1 point
5 grams of fiber = -1 point
So... of course all the green vegitables are zero... superfoods like blackberries and blueberries are zero... natural apple sauce etc...
Since WW didn't count half points, you do have to be careful with some zero point finds because when you eat enough of them, they do become points.
So... a few fabulous ZERO (or almost) POINT FOODS to check out!!
- MISSION carb balance tortillas
- FlatOut flat bread
- FiberOne Yogurt
- FiberOne Cereals
- FiberOne Cereal/granola bars
- Quaker high fiber Oatmeal
- Progresso Light soups
-
I'll add more to this list soon, but for now I need to get to bed!!
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Crazy day of catch-up-with-life... had my follow up interview and GOT THE NEW JOB! Eeep! So pumped. Life is so good lately. Dating, weather, snowboarding, great friends, new job... YEAH!!!!
Ok, so today.
I went for my body wrap, but I think I was stressing pretty hard about if I was going to get this new job or not... I got SO many hot spots. They were adding layers of washclothes all over me but my body just wasn't having it. So, after 30 minutes (they are usually 50) I had them just end my session. I still feel very good, I sweat out a lot and will go back at it next week.
FOOD.
Day.
3 FiberOne granola bars
1 apple
1 pear
1 flat bread (1pt) w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon (mmm)
Dinner.
Best Salad Ever: 6oz beef tendertoin (cut off all fat before cooking)
LOTS of dark greens
1 anaheim pepper
4oz salza
2 Tbs real ranch dressing w/4 Tbs vinegar, loads of fiber powder and cilantro
2oz grated cheese (I normally don't add this but I was celebrating)
1oz pine nuts
Dessert.
2 flatbread tortillas w/PB
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
15 minutes Random on stationary bike -180 calories
20 minutes on Treadmill (ran for 4 minutes... longest I've actually RUN in forever!) - 200 calories
Leg lifts and lower ab work on the mat
Unplanned.
Parked far away at the grocery store and job interview.
Ok, so today.
I went for my body wrap, but I think I was stressing pretty hard about if I was going to get this new job or not... I got SO many hot spots. They were adding layers of washclothes all over me but my body just wasn't having it. So, after 30 minutes (they are usually 50) I had them just end my session. I still feel very good, I sweat out a lot and will go back at it next week.
FOOD.
Day.
3 FiberOne granola bars
1 apple
1 pear
1 flat bread (1pt) w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon (mmm)
Dinner.
Best Salad Ever: 6oz beef tendertoin (cut off all fat before cooking)
LOTS of dark greens
1 anaheim pepper
4oz salza
2 Tbs real ranch dressing w/4 Tbs vinegar, loads of fiber powder and cilantro
2oz grated cheese (I normally don't add this but I was celebrating)
1oz pine nuts
Dessert.
2 flatbread tortillas w/PB
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
15 minutes Random on stationary bike -180 calories
20 minutes on Treadmill (ran for 4 minutes... longest I've actually RUN in forever!) - 200 calories
Leg lifts and lower ab work on the mat
Unplanned.
Parked far away at the grocery store and job interview.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
82
FOOD.
2 fiberOne granola bars
1 pear
1 light string cheese
16oz PBR (just over half my 24oz)
2 glasses (12oz) water
1 garlic burger (half the bun) ~ naughty but after riding, WOW
1 granola bar
2 cups raw carrots
1/2 cup light ranch w/vinegar and fiber
2 cups red grapes
1 granola bar
ACTIVITY.
Snowboarding at Snowbird
Unplanned.
Walked across big parking lot to ShopKo then to Big5 and back to my car.
2 fiberOne granola bars
1 pear
1 light string cheese
16oz PBR (just over half my 24oz)
2 glasses (12oz) water
1 garlic burger (half the bun) ~ naughty but after riding, WOW
1 granola bar
2 cups raw carrots
1/2 cup light ranch w/vinegar and fiber
2 cups red grapes
1 granola bar
ACTIVITY.
Snowboarding at Snowbird
Unplanned.
Walked across big parking lot to ShopKo then to Big5 and back to my car.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
83
Didn't end up going snowboarding... going up tomorrow for sure though.
Been craving carbs all afternoon... trying REALLY hard to resist.
~~ ended up giving in and having a bag on sunchips. Yum :-)
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 tortilla
2 Tbs PB
Lunch.
1/2 cup black beans
1/4 cup mushroom spaghetti sauce
1 1/2 cup steamed broccoli
1/4 cup light ranch dressing w/fiber & vinegar
Snack.
Snack-sized m&m mcFlurry (only about 200 calories. Yum!)
Added fiber powder and mixed in some high fiber cereal... this is one of my fave treats when dieting!!
Dinner.
2x turkey dog w/spinach & peperoncini on zero point tortilla
sun chips
1 can rockstar hydration
Snack.
1 pear
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
5 minute bike warmup
15 minutes Random workout on bike, level 12 -200 calories
15 minutes Fat Burn on elliptical -135 calories
15 minutes on treadmill, 4mph w/3lb weights in each hand. Shoulder and abdominal toning -? calories
30 incline situps w/10 lb weight
3 sets of 2x8 leg lifts w/twists (obliques)
Oblique toning w/15lb weight (body turns)
5 minute walking cool down on treadmill @ 3.5mph
Been craving carbs all afternoon... trying REALLY hard to resist.
~~ ended up giving in and having a bag on sunchips. Yum :-)
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 tortilla
2 Tbs PB
Lunch.
1/2 cup black beans
1/4 cup mushroom spaghetti sauce
1 1/2 cup steamed broccoli
1/4 cup light ranch dressing w/fiber & vinegar
Snack.
Snack-sized m&m mcFlurry (only about 200 calories. Yum!)
Added fiber powder and mixed in some high fiber cereal... this is one of my fave treats when dieting!!
Dinner.
2x turkey dog w/spinach & peperoncini on zero point tortilla
sun chips
1 can rockstar hydration
Snack.
1 pear
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
5 minute bike warmup
15 minutes Random workout on bike, level 12 -200 calories
15 minutes Fat Burn on elliptical -135 calories
15 minutes on treadmill, 4mph w/3lb weights in each hand. Shoulder and abdominal toning -? calories
30 incline situps w/10 lb weight
3 sets of 2x8 leg lifts w/twists (obliques)
Oblique toning w/15lb weight (body turns)
5 minute walking cool down on treadmill @ 3.5mph
Friday, April 29, 2011
84
Didn't make it to the gym yesterday but I'll be going right after work today... and then snowboarding powder at Snowbird tomorrow!! That will be a workout... that place is so steep! GAH hahaha
Anyway, had an interview this morning... pretty excited about it. I have to take a personality assessment and then have my 2nd interview Monday~ this could be a pretty awesome new opportunity for growth.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
2 tortillas
2 Tbs PB
Snack.
3 light string cheese
Lunch.
SmartOne (2pts)
Snack.
1 Oreo
1 1/2 bread stick from O.G. (naughty, but this was pre-gym)
Dinner.
1 1/2 cup steamed broccoli
1/2 cup raw carrots
1/2 cup light ranch dressing w/added fiber and vinegar
Snack.
3 tortillas w/pb (body was craving more protein)
2 glasses of chardonnay
Water? Yes
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
5 minute warm up on bike
20 minutes Random on bike (level 12) -200 calories
20 minutes Fat Burn on Arc trainer (level 6) -280 calories
10 minute cool down walking on treadmill w/3lbs in each hand
Unplanned.
Stairs down 6 flights at work
Parked on 4th (top) floor at work
Anyway, had an interview this morning... pretty excited about it. I have to take a personality assessment and then have my 2nd interview Monday~ this could be a pretty awesome new opportunity for growth.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
2 tortillas
2 Tbs PB
Snack.
3 light string cheese
Lunch.
SmartOne (2pts)
Snack.
1 Oreo
1 1/2 bread stick from O.G. (naughty, but this was pre-gym)
Dinner.
1 1/2 cup steamed broccoli
1/2 cup raw carrots
1/2 cup light ranch dressing w/added fiber and vinegar
Snack.
3 tortillas w/pb (body was craving more protein)
2 glasses of chardonnay
Water? Yes
ACTIVITY.
Gym.
5 minute warm up on bike
20 minutes Random on bike (level 12) -200 calories
20 minutes Fat Burn on Arc trainer (level 6) -280 calories
10 minute cool down walking on treadmill w/3lbs in each hand
Unplanned.
Stairs down 6 flights at work
Parked on 4th (top) floor at work
Thursday, April 28, 2011
85
16th day and going strong.
Not sure if I'll make it to the gym for long today, but I will be going for at least a little bit after work today. I have to work late today because I have an interview in the morning ~ so then I have to stay late again tomorrow to make sure I work enough hours.
I was going to go mountain biking all weekend, but since the weather is going to be terrible in CO and I have to work late, I bailed on the trip. I will definitely be getting out to do something active both days this weekend. Snowboarding Sunday I'm hoping and not sure yet about Saturday. But today I'll get at least 25 minutes on the stationary bike in before I go get other stuff done tonight.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 Tbs PB
Lunch.
Potluck at work: baby carrots & broccoli (raw), 3 Tbs light ranch, 3 slices turkey sandwich meat, 5 sweedish meetballs
1 cherry coke zero
Snack.
More carrots, broccoli and 2 Tbs light ranch dressing (I really should go without the ranch but I figure I skipped any/all dessert temptations so the low-fat ranch dressing isn't too terrible.
Dinner.
2 light string cheese
1/2 cup black beans
large bowl of mixed greens with home-made dressing
Snack.
Tortilla w/ pb
ACTIVITY.
Gym. ~didn't make it
Unplanned. ~ park on top floor and take 3 flights of stairs, leaving work taking 6 flights of stairs down
Water goal? no =(
Not sure if I'll make it to the gym for long today, but I will be going for at least a little bit after work today. I have to work late today because I have an interview in the morning ~ so then I have to stay late again tomorrow to make sure I work enough hours.
I was going to go mountain biking all weekend, but since the weather is going to be terrible in CO and I have to work late, I bailed on the trip. I will definitely be getting out to do something active both days this weekend. Snowboarding Sunday I'm hoping and not sure yet about Saturday. But today I'll get at least 25 minutes on the stationary bike in before I go get other stuff done tonight.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 Tbs PB
Lunch.
Potluck at work: baby carrots & broccoli (raw), 3 Tbs light ranch, 3 slices turkey sandwich meat, 5 sweedish meetballs
1 cherry coke zero
Snack.
More carrots, broccoli and 2 Tbs light ranch dressing (I really should go without the ranch but I figure I skipped any/all dessert temptations so the low-fat ranch dressing isn't too terrible.
Dinner.
2 light string cheese
1/2 cup black beans
large bowl of mixed greens with home-made dressing
Snack.
Tortilla w/ pb
ACTIVITY.
Gym. ~didn't make it
Unplanned. ~ park on top floor and take 3 flights of stairs, leaving work taking 6 flights of stairs down
Water goal? no =(
Healthy + Unheathy
Adding something unhealthy to make healthy foods taste better is pretty much a big waste of time. If you want to get your vitamins from veggies and you douse them in ranch dressing or cheese sauce, your efforts are totally counter productive.
Kids wont eat their veggies? DON'T deep fry them... find new ways to prepare your foods that make them taste better (to you): squeeze a lemon over steamed veggies, add a sprinkle of vinegar, oregano, basil or simple black pepper... or try spray butter (idk how they do it but that stuff is genius!). Skip the cheese, get mustard instead of mayo... more tips to cut calories but add flavor to come.
Picture: my coworkers Erin and Sam offered me a "healthy donut" at our potluck hahaha
competition
I'm on track and I feel really good. I woke up this morning and took a minute to check myself out in the mirror... laugh if you will, but a big part of my motivation in this challenge is to look better naked (or nearly). I was in my usual morning garb: a tshirt and chonies...I took off the t-shirt and checked out my "problem areas." Maybe i'm just hallucinating but I feel like they are already starting to tighten up. I feel awesome.
Since today is my 16th day of this challenge, I've officially beat the girl who did the blog http://100daychallenge.blogspot.com/ HAHA~ she posted 15 days and vanished, so that makes me feel good about myself. I know that most people wouldn't agree with my competative nature with this sort of thing, but that's what works for me. I lose motivation when there is no competition other than myself... so, it's little things like that which push me to keep going.
I really like my gym. I go to Planet Fitness. If you haven't seen their commercials, check them out on YouTube and you'll laugh. I really do feel the difference in the "Judgement Free Zone." There are people of all shapes and sizes, all different motivations for being at the gym... and I really like it. There are no meat heads, no grunting... it just feels like a place where I want to sweat my ass off and leave with a smile on my face. I just thought I'd share. If you have one near you, go take a tour...their membership costs are crazy low! If you decide to join, just put me down as your referal source (I have no idea what this does, but I think they do some sort of credit for new accounts or something... couldn't hurt)/
http://www.planetfitness.com/
Since today is my 16th day of this challenge, I've officially beat the girl who did the blog http://100daychallenge.blogspot.com/ HAHA~ she posted 15 days and vanished, so that makes me feel good about myself. I know that most people wouldn't agree with my competative nature with this sort of thing, but that's what works for me. I lose motivation when there is no competition other than myself... so, it's little things like that which push me to keep going.
I really like my gym. I go to Planet Fitness. If you haven't seen their commercials, check them out on YouTube and you'll laugh. I really do feel the difference in the "Judgement Free Zone." There are people of all shapes and sizes, all different motivations for being at the gym... and I really like it. There are no meat heads, no grunting... it just feels like a place where I want to sweat my ass off and leave with a smile on my face. I just thought I'd share. If you have one near you, go take a tour...their membership costs are crazy low! If you decide to join, just put me down as your referal source (I have no idea what this does, but I think they do some sort of credit for new accounts or something... couldn't hurt)/
http://www.planetfitness.com/
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
86
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
2 TBS pb
Snack.
4oz natural apple sauce
2 light string cheese
Snack.
1 yogurt
Dinner.
Dark green salad with crab meat, carrots, cherry tomatoes and 4oz of remulade dressing and lots of vinegar
Snack.
1 tortilla w/pb
1 litre water at work? YES!
ACTIVITY.
Gym. 5 minute walk warm up on treadmill, 25 minutes of "random" on elliptical - heart rate average 165, 10 minute intervals on bike, 5 minute cool down on stationary bike.
Inner & Outer thigh/hip toning on machines: 3 sets of 10 on each
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
2 TBS pb
Snack.
4oz natural apple sauce
2 light string cheese
Snack.
1 yogurt
Dinner.
Dark green salad with crab meat, carrots, cherry tomatoes and 4oz of remulade dressing and lots of vinegar
Snack.
1 tortilla w/pb
1 litre water at work? YES!
ACTIVITY.
Gym. 5 minute walk warm up on treadmill, 25 minutes of "random" on elliptical - heart rate average 165, 10 minute intervals on bike, 5 minute cool down on stationary bike.
Inner & Outer thigh/hip toning on machines: 3 sets of 10 on each
FormoStar Body Wrap information
Per request, here is more information on the detoxifying body wraps I am trying out.
They recommended that I do 2-3 a week for a few weeks if I really want to see and feel body sculpting results. While I did initially purchace the package of 5 wraps (on sale for $89) to try and slim my problem area (love handles) and kick start my visual results from this 100 day personal challenge, I have found that the detoxification that comes from these is what I benefit from more. So, I am doing my wraps for 5 weeks on Mondays~~ weekends tend to be when I drink or eat snacky foods so my body clearly builds up toxins and these wraps leave me feeling refreshed.
How they work. I go in and they wrap these infrared silicone bandages around my thighs, hips and abdomen... and then they give me the option of having my upper arms wrappped or my calves~ I've been doing arms. These bandages/pads are put over my clothing and then the woman covers me with a blanket. I lay there and can watch tv for 50 minutes... and sweat. You sweat a lot! There is a fan in the room that you can turn on if you want. This week, to up my experience I wore a long sleeve top with a hood. I took my hood off after about 25 minutes.
They actually recommend that you do bring a water bottle and drink throughout the 50 minute session. The idea is that these wraps aren't just dehydrating you, you can keep yourself hydrated as you sweat out all the toxins in your system.
Here is the link from the place where I go here in Utah as well as a few other links to informational resources about infrared body wraps and their benefits.
HYPERLINKS:
- Body Perfect Tanning Salon - FormoStar
- FormoStar's website
- Results Study
- I couldn't find any articles from medical journals about this technology aside from wound treatment/chronic pain treatment... but it is new and I'm sure those will be published in time.
They recommended that I do 2-3 a week for a few weeks if I really want to see and feel body sculpting results. While I did initially purchace the package of 5 wraps (on sale for $89) to try and slim my problem area (love handles) and kick start my visual results from this 100 day personal challenge, I have found that the detoxification that comes from these is what I benefit from more. So, I am doing my wraps for 5 weeks on Mondays~~ weekends tend to be when I drink or eat snacky foods so my body clearly builds up toxins and these wraps leave me feeling refreshed.
How they work. I go in and they wrap these infrared silicone bandages around my thighs, hips and abdomen... and then they give me the option of having my upper arms wrappped or my calves~ I've been doing arms. These bandages/pads are put over my clothing and then the woman covers me with a blanket. I lay there and can watch tv for 50 minutes... and sweat. You sweat a lot! There is a fan in the room that you can turn on if you want. This week, to up my experience I wore a long sleeve top with a hood. I took my hood off after about 25 minutes.
They actually recommend that you do bring a water bottle and drink throughout the 50 minute session. The idea is that these wraps aren't just dehydrating you, you can keep yourself hydrated as you sweat out all the toxins in your system.
Here is the link from the place where I go here in Utah as well as a few other links to informational resources about infrared body wraps and their benefits.
HYPERLINKS:
- Body Perfect Tanning Salon - FormoStar
- FormoStar's website
- Results Study
- I couldn't find any articles from medical journals about this technology aside from wound treatment/chronic pain treatment... but it is new and I'm sure those will be published in time.
wednesday weigh-in
Today's weight: 177
PROGRESS!!! :-)
That's 6 pounds down from my start, 2 weeks ago. Definitely a safe rate.
I did feel kind of dehydrated this morning so that could be a bit lower than it should be, but I'm always going to record exactly what my little IKEA scale says on Wednesday mornings. I put it in the same place on my kitchen floor and always have on a tshirt and chonies.
My focus for this next week is going to be to up my water intake. I've been trying to drink at least one litre while I'm at work every day, but even that hasn't been happening every day. So, the goal for the next 7 posts is to record if I drink my daily litre at work... I should try to drink 2 a day, but I do best with small-step goals. 1 first, then eventually 2 =)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
87
Didn't sleep much last night. I woke up at 4:30am and couldn't fall back asleep, so I got up and tidy'd my apartment, painted my nails, didn't vacuum out of respect for my sleeping neighbors... but ah well. I do feel good today. After yesterday's FormoStar body wrap and visit to the gym... the guilt from my holiday over-indulgence has subsided. I think I'm going to do the rest of my wraps on Mondays (since weekends tend to be when I build up toxins). They really don't feel slimming, but I do sweat my butt off and I know that I'm getting the toxins out of my system. I feel really good after my treatments.
**These wraps are kind of expensive. I decided to try them out because the normal cost is $59 for one treatment, but they were offering a special of 5 visits for $89 ~ so my girl Bre recommended I try it out as she knew I wanted an extra bit of kick-off for this weight loss plan... I've gone twice so far. I figure, it was something to try.
Today.
I have tentative dinner plans so I most likely won't be visiting the gym today~ if dinner is postponed I will definitely go, but my goal is at least 3 times a week so taking a night off is no big deal.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 TBS pb
Snack.
8oz Pineapple tidbits in natural juice
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
Pork tenderloin stuffed with goat cheese & sun dried tomatoes
Green Beans
2 glasses of chardonnay
ACTIVITY. :-/ nonezo
**These wraps are kind of expensive. I decided to try them out because the normal cost is $59 for one treatment, but they were offering a special of 5 visits for $89 ~ so my girl Bre recommended I try it out as she knew I wanted an extra bit of kick-off for this weight loss plan... I've gone twice so far. I figure, it was something to try.
Today.
I have tentative dinner plans so I most likely won't be visiting the gym today~ if dinner is postponed I will definitely go, but my goal is at least 3 times a week so taking a night off is no big deal.
FOOD.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 TBS pb
Snack.
8oz Pineapple tidbits in natural juice
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
Pork tenderloin stuffed with goat cheese & sun dried tomatoes
Green Beans
2 glasses of chardonnay
ACTIVITY. :-/ nonezo
how this works
Apparently it is unclear to some people how this 100 day blog is set up.
My first day posting was numbered/titled 100. The title of each post (well, those that are #s) stands for the number of days remaining in my challenge.
Every day I'm posting what I eat.
I initially post my daily log in the morning after I've eaten breakfast and then record the food I have with me for my work day. Throughout the day I edit the food I'm intaking and update the posting time.
If I'm cooking meals, I am going to start sharing recepes and details about nutrition that I have learned over time ~ in hopes of sharing some tasty meal ideas and spreading important nutrition information.
Before the end of the day I make sure that my food logging for the day is totally up-to-date and I also add any activity that was part of my day. I will often include both PLANNED (gym, bike rides, snowboarding etc) and UNPLANNED (parking far away on purpose, taking extra trips with groceries etc) activity to my daily posts.
In addition to all of this, I attempt to add personal goals and outlook on how things are progressing and so forth.
I weigh myself on Wednesday mornings and post that, weekly, entitled Wednesday Weigh In.
My final weigh-in day will be Saturday, July 23rd 2011. That is day ZER0 =)
Hope this helps.
My first day posting was numbered/titled 100. The title of each post (well, those that are #s) stands for the number of days remaining in my challenge.
Every day I'm posting what I eat.
I initially post my daily log in the morning after I've eaten breakfast and then record the food I have with me for my work day. Throughout the day I edit the food I'm intaking and update the posting time.
If I'm cooking meals, I am going to start sharing recepes and details about nutrition that I have learned over time ~ in hopes of sharing some tasty meal ideas and spreading important nutrition information.
Before the end of the day I make sure that my food logging for the day is totally up-to-date and I also add any activity that was part of my day. I will often include both PLANNED (gym, bike rides, snowboarding etc) and UNPLANNED (parking far away on purpose, taking extra trips with groceries etc) activity to my daily posts.
In addition to all of this, I attempt to add personal goals and outlook on how things are progressing and so forth.
I weigh myself on Wednesday mornings and post that, weekly, entitled Wednesday Weigh In.
My final weigh-in day will be Saturday, July 23rd 2011. That is day ZER0 =)
Hope this helps.
Monday, April 25, 2011
88
New week, back on track after yesterday's holiday ridiculousness.
I have a body wrap appointment this afternoon, so I'll go do that after work and then go to the gym, tan and then do at least a little bit of cardio to get my body moving after a few days of not enough activity.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 TBS pb
Snack.
1 red grapefruit
Lunch.
1 smartOne frozen meal (2pts)
Snack.
1 light string cheese
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
1 can progresso light soup
4oz white mushrooms (added to soup)
4oz spinach (added to soup)
Activity.
Gym: 30 minutes on the elliptical w/heart rate 155-165, 10 minute cool down walking on the treadmill at 4mph
Thermo body wrap... getting out those toxins
**************
I need to drink more water every day.
I have a body wrap appointment this afternoon, so I'll go do that after work and then go to the gym, tan and then do at least a little bit of cardio to get my body moving after a few days of not enough activity.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 TBS pb
Snack.
1 red grapefruit
Lunch.
1 smartOne frozen meal (2pts)
Snack.
1 light string cheese
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
1 can progresso light soup
4oz white mushrooms (added to soup)
4oz spinach (added to soup)
Activity.
Gym: 30 minutes on the elliptical w/heart rate 155-165, 10 minute cool down walking on the treadmill at 4mph
Thermo body wrap... getting out those toxins
**************
I need to drink more water every day.
changes
Due to some unforseen changes, the wedding that was the end goal for my personal challenge won't be happening.
However, I have set a goal for myself and I'm going to make it happen. So, small bits of my motivation have changed, but I'm still motivated by my intrinsic need to look my best! I originally thought of myself in comparison to the other women who were standing up in the same wedding party and had the idea of ideally NOT looking 4x their size as part of my motivation. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, but my self consciousness has some strong ties to my naturally larger-than-average stature. Therefore, when I do have extra weight on my physical awareness-- of how much larger I am than the average females around me REALLY sticks out even moreso in my eyes. I know full well that to most people, I do not look fat. I do not think of myself as fat. But I do know when I like the way I look in my under garments and when my clothes fit comfortably (and properly).
So now it's just me against myself...as it always has been, really.
The beat goes on =)
However, I have set a goal for myself and I'm going to make it happen. So, small bits of my motivation have changed, but I'm still motivated by my intrinsic need to look my best! I originally thought of myself in comparison to the other women who were standing up in the same wedding party and had the idea of ideally NOT looking 4x their size as part of my motivation. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, but my self consciousness has some strong ties to my naturally larger-than-average stature. Therefore, when I do have extra weight on my physical awareness-- of how much larger I am than the average females around me REALLY sticks out even moreso in my eyes. I know full well that to most people, I do not look fat. I do not think of myself as fat. But I do know when I like the way I look in my under garments and when my clothes fit comfortably (and properly).
So now it's just me against myself...as it always has been, really.
The beat goes on =)
Sunday, April 24, 2011
89
Easter.
I woke up and drove home after a pretty awesome 24 hours with a new person (I won't go into details, but I kinda think they're great).
I decided to drive straight to the gym because I felt like I should try to get a workout in before brunch (junk). I got downtown and saw the sign on the door~ closed for Easter holiday... BLASTED!!! I was sad. So, I just went home and relaxed, ended up just taking it easy (including a nap) until I went to my friends' house for Easter brunch.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granolda bar
8oz pineapple tidbits in juice
2 tortillas 2/pb
Brunch.
Ham
Potatoes (SO naughty)
Green beans w/pecans
1 Cut Throat pale ale
Lots of fruit (strawberries and kiwi)
2 rice crispy treats
1 scoop of heaven (idk what that was but it was so good, I'm sure it was horrible for me)
Snack.
Salsa & chips
Activity.
Driving range: 100 balls.
Not exactly what I would call activity but at least I got out and did something.
Overall it was a bad day food wise. It's REALLY hard to be good when you're around people who just don't understand how hard it is for you to say no.
I woke up and drove home after a pretty awesome 24 hours with a new person (I won't go into details, but I kinda think they're great).
I decided to drive straight to the gym because I felt like I should try to get a workout in before brunch (junk). I got downtown and saw the sign on the door~ closed for Easter holiday... BLASTED!!! I was sad. So, I just went home and relaxed, ended up just taking it easy (including a nap) until I went to my friends' house for Easter brunch.
Breakfast.
1 high fiber granolda bar
8oz pineapple tidbits in juice
2 tortillas 2/pb
Brunch.
Ham
Potatoes (SO naughty)
Green beans w/pecans
1 Cut Throat pale ale
Lots of fruit (strawberries and kiwi)
2 rice crispy treats
1 scoop of heaven (idk what that was but it was so good, I'm sure it was horrible for me)
Snack.
Salsa & chips
Activity.
Driving range: 100 balls.
Not exactly what I would call activity but at least I got out and did something.
Overall it was a bad day food wise. It's REALLY hard to be good when you're around people who just don't understand how hard it is for you to say no.
90
Food
1 apple
2 tbs pb
2 Coors lights
1 serving steamed veggies from panda
1 serving Beijing beef
1/2 apple
2 Coors light
Activity.
Snowboarding, hiking, snowmobiling
Friday, April 22, 2011
91
First 10 days have gone quickly, but I do realize I have a lot of time left. I'm feeling great since I've worked out at the gym for the past 2 days! Having my bicycle is also great since I can run my usual local errands using that instead of driving (gas is stupid expensive these days and I'm not a fan of large carbon footprints). I'm looking online for baskets for the back of my bike that will fit grocery bags so that I really can use my bike all summer around the city.
I probably won't make it to the gym tonight. I would like to, but since I have a doctor's appointment and then dinner plans I don't have time. I'm going tomorrow for sure (unless I get a lift ticket for Brighton). I will make sure I do some core toning at home tonight before bed. I'm looking to buy some ankle weights like the wrist ones I already have, just so that the days I don't make it to the gym, I can do leg toning at home with a bit more intensity than just using my own body weight.
FOOD: (projected for the day...will edit throughout the day if I don't eat everything I brought with me to work etc)
Breakfast.
2 high fiber tortillas (technically zero points! I love these things)
3 tsp peanut butter
Lunch.
SmartOne frozen meal (2pts)
1 red grapefruit
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
Spicy Chicken salad @ Cheesecake Factory (from their WW section on the menu)
1 Jack & Diet
late snack.
1 tortilla w/pb
ACTIVITY: none =(
12:10am I had a date tonight... and it was a LOT of fun. We just went to dinner and then talked for over 4 hours total HAHA. So, since I had to come home and shower after work and get dressed for dinner, I had to skip the gym...I'll make sure I'm active tomorrow!
I probably won't make it to the gym tonight. I would like to, but since I have a doctor's appointment and then dinner plans I don't have time. I'm going tomorrow for sure (unless I get a lift ticket for Brighton). I will make sure I do some core toning at home tonight before bed. I'm looking to buy some ankle weights like the wrist ones I already have, just so that the days I don't make it to the gym, I can do leg toning at home with a bit more intensity than just using my own body weight.
FOOD: (projected for the day...will edit throughout the day if I don't eat everything I brought with me to work etc)
Breakfast.
2 high fiber tortillas (technically zero points! I love these things)
3 tsp peanut butter
Lunch.
SmartOne frozen meal (2pts)
1 red grapefruit
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt
Dinner.
Spicy Chicken salad @ Cheesecake Factory (from their WW section on the menu)
1 Jack & Diet
late snack.
1 tortilla w/pb
ACTIVITY: none =(
12:10am I had a date tonight... and it was a LOT of fun. We just went to dinner and then talked for over 4 hours total HAHA. So, since I had to come home and shower after work and get dressed for dinner, I had to skip the gym...I'll make sure I'm active tomorrow!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
the suit
HERE IT IS: Same bathing suit!! Originally, the first 2 photos were not planned:
The heaviest photo is from my 25th Birthday (yeah, the face? I wasn't sober...I was was presenting my boobs as a present to Ryan. There IS video of this...and no, you will not see it.)
The middle photo is Labor Day 2009. In the back yard at my mom's house... when I realized I had the heavy photo in the same suit I put them side-by-side.
I do still have this suit (though it's getting pretty worn and I won't be rocking it this summer, I'll hold onto it for final photo purposes!). So I snapped a quick pic in my room (hence the lower quality) just so I could post a comparison.
THIS IS ME:
When I started... where I got... and where I am now. I want to look my best again :) So here's what I'm working with. I know I'm nowhere like I was, but I'm a bit more lumpy now and need to tighten back up and smooth out my curves. I LOVE MY CURVES ~ I'm just not a fan of my out-of-place and not-so-lovely lady lumps ;-)
So there it is. Me.
It's a lumpy road ahead... but I'm ready and the ball is rolling!
The heaviest photo is from my 25th Birthday (yeah, the face? I wasn't sober...I was was presenting my boobs as a present to Ryan. There IS video of this...and no, you will not see it.)
The middle photo is Labor Day 2009. In the back yard at my mom's house... when I realized I had the heavy photo in the same suit I put them side-by-side.
I do still have this suit (though it's getting pretty worn and I won't be rocking it this summer, I'll hold onto it for final photo purposes!). So I snapped a quick pic in my room (hence the lower quality) just so I could post a comparison.
THIS IS ME:
When I started... where I got... and where I am now. I want to look my best again :) So here's what I'm working with. I know I'm nowhere like I was, but I'm a bit more lumpy now and need to tighten back up and smooth out my curves. I LOVE MY CURVES ~ I'm just not a fan of my out-of-place and not-so-lovely lady lumps ;-)
So there it is. Me.
It's a lumpy road ahead... but I'm ready and the ball is rolling!
92
I didn't sleep last night... no clue why, just couldn't relax. Maybe I just slept entirely too much over the past few days while sick and my body was just done! But I really thought after working out and all the stuff I got done yesterday that I would sleep. Nevertheless... nope!
So this morning I ate and did some really light core toning - just some leg lifts and bicycles in my bedroom. I packed my gym clothes and took them to work with me so that I can go on my way home!
FOOD:
Breakfast.
1 medium apple
2 TBS peanut butter
Snack.
20oz Perk-u-cino (this is super naughty...but the cold feels great on my throat and I needed the WAKE UP since I forgot to take my aderall today!)
Lunch.
1 can Progresso light soup
1 red grapefruit
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt (omg, ameretto cheesecake, 1pt?! how do they do that?!?!?!)
Dinner.
Salad with crab meet and dark greens. Yum!
Snack.
100 cal bag of smartpop kettle corn
ACTIVITY.
Gym - 35 minutes of cardio on eliptical and arc trainers, then 15 minute walk on the tredmill...
I feel AMAZING. Working out puts a smile on my face after a long, boring day.
Short bike ride - returning redbox movies to 7-11
I feel really good today. Making this blog public on my Facebook and sharing the link with people who know me and can (if they so choose) help me keep myself accountable is really empowering. I'm so pumped to know that some of my friends are working on their own goals at the same time and that we can encourage each other along the way!!
So this morning I ate and did some really light core toning - just some leg lifts and bicycles in my bedroom. I packed my gym clothes and took them to work with me so that I can go on my way home!
FOOD:
Breakfast.
1 medium apple
2 TBS peanut butter
Snack.
20oz Perk-u-cino (this is super naughty...but the cold feels great on my throat and I needed the WAKE UP since I forgot to take my aderall today!)
Lunch.
1 can Progresso light soup
1 red grapefruit
Snack.
1 weightwatchers yogurt (omg, ameretto cheesecake, 1pt?! how do they do that?!?!?!)
Dinner.
Salad with crab meet and dark greens. Yum!
Snack.
100 cal bag of smartpop kettle corn
ACTIVITY.
Gym - 35 minutes of cardio on eliptical and arc trainers, then 15 minute walk on the tredmill...
I feel AMAZING. Working out puts a smile on my face after a long, boring day.
Short bike ride - returning redbox movies to 7-11
I feel really good today. Making this blog public on my Facebook and sharing the link with people who know me and can (if they so choose) help me keep myself accountable is really empowering. I'm so pumped to know that some of my friends are working on their own goals at the same time and that we can encourage each other along the way!!
honestly shocking
As I have decided to start posting the link to this blog on my facebook and share it via email with friends and loved ones...I've been getting some feedback that I wasn't expecting.
OMG!!!!!!!!!!! YOU WEIGH OVER 180 POUNDS?!?!?!?!!? OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ADMIT THAT!!
WTF people... really? Is honestly really that shocking? Why is it such a big deal for a woman who is NOT fat to honestly share her weight. If you look back at pictures of me when I was my thinnest, I was 155lbs~ and all those healthy pictures the comments flooded in for, I was 160-165. Yeah, for me, 160-165 looks great. Shocked by that number? How about you step back and think about this for a minute:
The average American adult female is 5'4" and weighs 140lbs and size 14
The average female we see on television is 5'11 and weighs 117lbs...
Though size 14 is average size in the US, it is the least commonly purchaced size of clothing... odd?
Article 1Article 2
I'm open and honest about what I weigh. Most of my life I was made to feel that this NUMBER was something to be ashamed of. I'm not ashamed. I am not a small person. I am a tall, muscular, beautiful woman... and it took me over 20 years to start believing that.
Now that I am back to focusing on getting myself healthy again, I am sharing every thought, calorie, experience and struggle... in hopes that maybe thoughts from friends (or even strangers) will help to keep me motivated and working hard on myself so that I can reach my final goals.
Even if I get zero feedback, no comments... no help... I wanted to keep myself accountable for all of my actions and I set this goal for myself. I couldn't think of a better way to really be accountable than something that others had public access too and I couldn't hide from ~ of course I could LIE, but what's the point?! I have a goal, it will be reached.
Ok, enough rambling... back to work!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
93
Doctor upped my antibiotics schedule to get this crap gone... because it's hella annoying.
To make myself feel a bit better I went to get a haircut, I really needed it. I went to see my girl Bre at LUCID ENDS SALON...I love her. She definitely helped me feel better.
She also recommended I try out this thermowrap body contouring thing that she has been doing as her wedding fast approaches! It's kinda expensive ($89 for 5, 1 hour sessions) but it's a crazy kick start to my body work and it's removing toxins (not just dehydrating)... I'll report back on how I feel about it after I've gone more than this one time. But WOW, I sweat a ton!!
FOOD.
1 light string cheese
2 TBS peanut butter
1 high fiber granola bar
2 cups high fiber cereal
1 cup almond milk
1 rockstar hydrate
4 celery heart stalks w/peanut butter (total 1TBS)
Hmm...didn't eat much today. Weird.
ACTIVITY.
I went to the gym!! 25 minutes on the elliptical and 10 on the treadmill... and a quick first tanning session to start working my skin away from it's current pasty tone. Eeep!
To make myself feel a bit better I went to get a haircut, I really needed it. I went to see my girl Bre at LUCID ENDS SALON...I love her. She definitely helped me feel better.
She also recommended I try out this thermowrap body contouring thing that she has been doing as her wedding fast approaches! It's kinda expensive ($89 for 5, 1 hour sessions) but it's a crazy kick start to my body work and it's removing toxins (not just dehydrating)... I'll report back on how I feel about it after I've gone more than this one time. But WOW, I sweat a ton!!
FOOD.
1 light string cheese
2 TBS peanut butter
1 high fiber granola bar
2 cups high fiber cereal
1 cup almond milk
1 rockstar hydrate
4 celery heart stalks w/peanut butter (total 1TBS)
Hmm...didn't eat much today. Weird.
ACTIVITY.
I went to the gym!! 25 minutes on the elliptical and 10 on the treadmill... and a quick first tanning session to start working my skin away from it's current pasty tone. Eeep!
wednesday weigh-in
Today's weight: 183... same as last week =/
I'm ok with this because it's that time of the month and I'm holding water... I also really haven't worked out and I've had a very slow start to this process.
Next week, we WILL see progress!!
94
Another sick day...
1 quart orange juice
2 turkey dog w/veggie wrap
4 cups apple sauce
1 grapefruit
2 granola bars (high fiber)
3 TBLs peanut butter
1 can progresso light soup
1 sweet potato w/spray butter
REALLY don't want to go to work tomorrow... I want to just quit and find some part time work. Ma blew my mind today... she paid off my entire credit card bill and made me put away the card. I have no idea how to thank her. I just need to figure my life out with work because the commute is costing me way too much money with gas and wear on my old car. I need to not only shape up physically, but my life needs reshaping. I need to shape up. Pronto!
1 quart orange juice
2 turkey dog w/veggie wrap
4 cups apple sauce
1 grapefruit
2 granola bars (high fiber)
3 TBLs peanut butter
1 can progresso light soup
1 sweet potato w/spray butter
REALLY don't want to go to work tomorrow... I want to just quit and find some part time work. Ma blew my mind today... she paid off my entire credit card bill and made me put away the card. I have no idea how to thank her. I just need to figure my life out with work because the commute is costing me way too much money with gas and wear on my old car. I need to not only shape up physically, but my life needs reshaping. I need to shape up. Pronto!
Monday, April 18, 2011
95
SICK DAY =(
Well, I went to the doctor and actually got on their very accurate scale :-/ And after my very naughty weekend their scale said 186. Really not that bad. I also just got my period so that means I'm a little heavier than normal anyhow.
But yeah. I'm hella sick. Have strep and some other virus (rapid tests didn't identify) so I'm on antibiotics and pain meds because my tonsil is bleeding and MASSIVE. So, no contact with other people until after noon tomorrow at the earliest...I'm over this sick stuff...
so today my diet was weird. Not really in "meals" so I just sort of ate between movies and naps today.
Apple
Tortilla w/pb
*doctor visit*
sugar free Slurpee (felt SO good on my throat)
ice cream cone from McD (hey, on WW that's only 2 points!! but the cold felt great!)
Progresso light chicken noodle soup - 1 can
2 cups natural (no sugar added) apple sauce
2 bowls high fiber cereal w/almond milk
1 pudding w/fresh blackberries
1 quart orange juice (yeah, it stings)
I'm SUPER happy that this (whatever it is) isn't Mono like the doctor suspected because that would mean I would have a hold up when it comes to working out.
I'm just hoping to get healthy and back on track...
Well, I went to the doctor and actually got on their very accurate scale :-/ And after my very naughty weekend their scale said 186. Really not that bad. I also just got my period so that means I'm a little heavier than normal anyhow.
But yeah. I'm hella sick. Have strep and some other virus (rapid tests didn't identify) so I'm on antibiotics and pain meds because my tonsil is bleeding and MASSIVE. So, no contact with other people until after noon tomorrow at the earliest...I'm over this sick stuff...
so today my diet was weird. Not really in "meals" so I just sort of ate between movies and naps today.
Apple
Tortilla w/pb
*doctor visit*
sugar free Slurpee (felt SO good on my throat)
ice cream cone from McD (hey, on WW that's only 2 points!! but the cold felt great!)
Progresso light chicken noodle soup - 1 can
2 cups natural (no sugar added) apple sauce
2 bowls high fiber cereal w/almond milk
1 pudding w/fresh blackberries
1 quart orange juice (yeah, it stings)
I'm SUPER happy that this (whatever it is) isn't Mono like the doctor suspected because that would mean I would have a hold up when it comes to working out.
I'm just hoping to get healthy and back on track...
Sunday, April 17, 2011
96
What a weekend... all that snowboarding... and the great times at Bike Prom? HAHAHA incredible. The emotional hickup yesterday after a terrible phonecall from a toxic person really put me in a down mood and then I wasn't even thinking about all the crap I was eating. Today I was better... no idea about points. I'm just going to start keeping track of everything I'm eating and not worrying about converting points~ I know when I've eaten too much for a day..
Breakfast.
Gandolfo's sandwich
Unsweatened Tea
Lunch.
Salad w/no oil dressing
Snack.
100 cal popcorn
Dinner.
Salad w/no oil
Apple w/pb
Snack.
Pudding
Tortilla w/PB
Activity.
Snowboarding (2 hours of slush!)
Unplanned Activity.
multiple trips to/from the car with my laundry.
I'm really excited to own a bike now... and to have people who are excited to be active with me. Midge wants to be my guest at the gym and she's already inviting me on mountain biking/camping trips (friends have extra bikes for me since mine is just for around town). I'm pumped to be outside and active this spring and summer!!
165lbs here I come!!!!
Breakfast.
Gandolfo's sandwich
Unsweatened Tea
Lunch.
Salad w/no oil dressing
Snack.
100 cal popcorn
Dinner.
Salad w/no oil
Apple w/pb
Snack.
Pudding
Tortilla w/PB
Activity.
Snowboarding (2 hours of slush!)
Unplanned Activity.
multiple trips to/from the car with my laundry.
I'm really excited to own a bike now... and to have people who are excited to be active with me. Midge wants to be my guest at the gym and she's already inviting me on mountain biking/camping trips (friends have extra bikes for me since mine is just for around town). I'm pumped to be outside and active this spring and summer!!
165lbs here I come!!!!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
97
HOLY BAD FOOD DAY :(
Yeah... so I had 2 BBQs with friends today and ate entirely too much garbage to even keep track of =(
Activity.
SNOWBOARDING (4 hours of park laps in slush).
DANCING (2 hours at Bike Prom).
Unplanned Activity.
Walked to 7-11 to buy firewood.
We all have to have a cheat day right? Eh, wrong... I really shouldn't have eaten that stuff and I'll be making up for it this week when I finally get to the gym!
Yeah... so I had 2 BBQs with friends today and ate entirely too much garbage to even keep track of =(
Activity.
SNOWBOARDING (4 hours of park laps in slush).
DANCING (2 hours at Bike Prom).
Unplanned Activity.
Walked to 7-11 to buy firewood.
We all have to have a cheat day right? Eh, wrong... I really shouldn't have eaten that stuff and I'll be making up for it this week when I finally get to the gym!
Friday, April 15, 2011
98
Breakfast.
3 - celery sticks w/PB
Snack.
3 - string cheese
0 - grapefruit
2 - pieces of candy from coworkers**BAD
Lunch.
2 - smartOne
1 - yogurt
Snack.
8 - BAD**Erin's leftover lunch...from Cafe Rio
Dinner.
4 - salad w/a turkey dog and no-oil dressing
1 - carrots
2 - cereal & almond milk
Snack.
1 - yogurt w/blackberries
1 - pudding
TOTAL: 28 =( NAUGHTY
ACTIVITY:
Planned. I went for a bike ride!! (yep, I bought that bike after work)
Unplanned. carrying the bike up and down the stairs twice. Parked REALLY far away on purpose at wallyworld
I ate too much... didn't drink enough water today. I'll make up for it with all the snowboarding and biking planned for this weekend!!
3 - celery sticks w/PB
Snack.
3 - string cheese
0 - grapefruit
2 - pieces of candy from coworkers**BAD
Lunch.
2 - smartOne
1 - yogurt
Snack.
8 - BAD**Erin's leftover lunch...from Cafe Rio
Dinner.
4 - salad w/a turkey dog and no-oil dressing
1 - carrots
2 - cereal & almond milk
Snack.
1 - yogurt w/blackberries
1 - pudding
TOTAL: 28 =( NAUGHTY
ACTIVITY:
Planned. I went for a bike ride!! (yep, I bought that bike after work)
Unplanned. carrying the bike up and down the stairs twice. Parked REALLY far away on purpose at wallyworld
I ate too much... didn't drink enough water today. I'll make up for it with all the snowboarding and biking planned for this weekend!!
motivation
I'm pretty upset with myself... I have YET to go to this new gym where I bought a membership a month ago. I really do want to work out but every night I get home from work and have no motivation to get back in my car, drive downtown to the gym etc... where can I find this motivation? I need some.
I really do want & need a bike. I may be going to the Bike Collective on Tuesday, but I would really like a bike sooner than that. I might go to wallyworld and just pick up a cruiser for $100 tonight after work. I think having a bike will be motivating for me~ I'd much rather ride my bike around the city than get in my car and spend MORE money on gas!
I really do want & need a bike. I may be going to the Bike Collective on Tuesday, but I would really like a bike sooner than that. I might go to wallyworld and just pick up a cruiser for $100 tonight after work. I think having a bike will be motivating for me~ I'd much rather ride my bike around the city than get in my car and spend MORE money on gas!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
99
I didn't go grocery shopping last night, nor did I do any exercise... very naughty. I need to grocery shop and get my laundry done before Saturday so I will definitely get at least one of the two done tonight... and DO SOMETHING ACTIVE! I need to get over to the gym.
I'm also going to keep tabs on both the planned (gym, bike rides, hikes etc) and unplanned excersise I do. Unplanned is like when I take the long way walking somewhere, or make several trips with groceries instead of trying to carry it all in one load and so forth.
Today's Food:
Breakfast.
3 - 2 cups dry cereal
Lunch.
6 - salad from subway. Double meat: Chicken w/honey mustard and vinegar
Dinner?
1 - carrots
3 - dressing
4 - 2 PB on tortilla
Snack?
1 - WW yogurt
2 - 2 sugar free jello pudding
TOTAL: 20 points
Activity:
Planned.
Not much =( Just walked to 7-11 (3 blocks) to get milk when I forgot to buy it at the grocery store. Did light core toning before bed.
Unplanned.
Took the stairs down 6 flights twice today. Walked the longer route to Subway at lunch. 2 trips into the house with groceries.
I'm also going to keep tabs on both the planned (gym, bike rides, hikes etc) and unplanned excersise I do. Unplanned is like when I take the long way walking somewhere, or make several trips with groceries instead of trying to carry it all in one load and so forth.
Today's Food:
Breakfast.
3 - 2 cups dry cereal
Lunch.
6 - salad from subway. Double meat: Chicken w/honey mustard and vinegar
Dinner?
1 - carrots
3 - dressing
4 - 2 PB on tortilla
Snack?
1 - WW yogurt
2 - 2 sugar free jello pudding
TOTAL: 20 points
Activity:
Planned.
Not much =( Just walked to 7-11 (3 blocks) to get milk when I forgot to buy it at the grocery store. Did light core toning before bed.
Unplanned.
Took the stairs down 6 flights twice today. Walked the longer route to Subway at lunch. 2 trips into the house with groceries.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
100
4/13/11
Today's food:
Breakfast.
1 - High Fiber Granola Bar
Snack.
2 - 2light string cheese
Lunch.
8 - Street tacos
(4 chicken, no tortillas, lettuce,
no cheese, one jalapeno and salsa)
Snack.
.5 - 4oz Natural Apple Sauce
Dinner.
3 - 6oz filet du Sol (cooked just with Pam spray and dried spices)
1 - mixed frozen veggies
Snack.
3 - 2 cups dry cereal
TOTAL POINTS: 18.5
Activity.
None
I really need to go grocery shopping and stock up on healthy foods. I need to make sure I have stuff to take for lunches and that I am not tempted to go to Subway or other places in walking range of work and over-eat.
Today's food:
Breakfast.
1 - High Fiber Granola Bar
Snack.
2 - 2light string cheese
Lunch.
8 - Street tacos
(4 chicken, no tortillas, lettuce,
no cheese, one jalapeno and salsa)
Snack.
.5 - 4oz Natural Apple Sauce
Dinner.
3 - 6oz filet du Sol (cooked just with Pam spray and dried spices)
1 - mixed frozen veggies
Snack.
3 - 2 cups dry cereal
TOTAL POINTS: 18.5
Activity.
None
I really need to go grocery shopping and stock up on healthy foods. I need to make sure I have stuff to take for lunches and that I am not tempted to go to Subway or other places in walking range of work and over-eat.
Wednesday Weigh-In (and goals)
...and so it begins!
I will only be weighing myself on Wednesdays. In my past, I struggled with some obsessive tendencies and there is no need to go crazy with trying to weigh yourself all of the time otherwise daily water retention variations will drive you/me crazy.
So, Wednesday mornings I will weigh myself first thing before eating/showering/etc, wearing chonies and a t-shirt.
STARTING WEIGHT: 183lbs
THE GOAL: lose 20lbs in 100 days
I have wanted to maintain my weight in the 160-165 range. I feel and look great in this weight window. So, that's what I'm aiming for!
STEPS: What I'll be doing in order to work toward my goal.
- Do something active every day (even if it is just going for a walk or doing core toning at home)
- Get to the gym 4 times a week
- Buy a bike and use that to commute around the city
- No fast food: Take lunch to work every day
- Limit alcohol consumption
- Keep track of daily food intake
I will only be weighing myself on Wednesdays. In my past, I struggled with some obsessive tendencies and there is no need to go crazy with trying to weigh yourself all of the time otherwise daily water retention variations will drive you/me crazy.
So, Wednesday mornings I will weigh myself first thing before eating/showering/etc, wearing chonies and a t-shirt.
STARTING WEIGHT: 183lbsTHE GOAL: lose 20lbs in 100 days
I have wanted to maintain my weight in the 160-165 range. I feel and look great in this weight window. So, that's what I'm aiming for!
STEPS: What I'll be doing in order to work toward my goal.
- Do something active every day (even if it is just going for a walk or doing core toning at home)
- Get to the gym 4 times a week
- Buy a bike and use that to commute around the city
- No fast food: Take lunch to work every day
- Limit alcohol consumption
- Keep track of daily food intake
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Shaping Up
One of my best friends is getting married on July 23rd, so that gives me 100 days to shape up. Less than 2 years ago I had achieved a total weightloss of 60lbs but now I have yoyo'd...who would have guessed?!
So, I'm making myself keep record of everything I eat and start holding myself accountable for doing something active every day and visiting the gym at at least 4 days a week.
I paid for a gym membership a month ago and I'm not going to let another year go by me with my being unhappy with the way I look.
I did not weigh myself this morning but I will do that first thing tomorrow and post that as that is technically the start of the 100 day count down.
I will be keeping track of WeightWatchers Points (not the most recent version but the version I learned 2 years ago when I did WW myself). I have set my daily limit to 22 but I aim to stay around 20 for the days I do not go to the gym.
So, I'm making myself keep record of everything I eat and start holding myself accountable for doing something active every day and visiting the gym at at least 4 days a week.
I paid for a gym membership a month ago and I'm not going to let another year go by me with my being unhappy with the way I look.
I did not weigh myself this morning but I will do that first thing tomorrow and post that as that is technically the start of the 100 day count down.
I will be keeping track of WeightWatchers Points (not the most recent version but the version I learned 2 years ago when I did WW myself). I have set my daily limit to 22 but I aim to stay around 20 for the days I do not go to the gym.
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