changes

Due to some unforseen changes, the wedding that was the end goal for my personal challenge won't be happening.
However, I have set a goal for myself and I'm going to make it happen. So, small bits of my motivation have changed, but I'm still motivated by my intrinsic need to look my best! I originally thought of myself in comparison to the other women who were standing up in the same wedding party and had the idea of ideally NOT looking 4x their size as part of my motivation. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, but my self consciousness has some strong ties to my naturally larger-than-average stature. Therefore, when I do have extra weight on my physical awareness-- of how much larger I am than the average females around me REALLY sticks out even moreso in my eyes. I know full well that to most people, I do not look fat. I do not think of myself as fat. But I do know when I like the way I look in my under garments and when my clothes fit comfortably (and properly).
So now it's just me against myself...as it always has been, really.
The beat goes on =)