52

Totally could not sleep last night... so frustrating. Lots to do today and too much in my head I guess, but I'm hoping to catch a nap at some point today so that my metabolism isn't completely shot.
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1 plain bagel
1 1/2 Tbs PB
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another one of ^^
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2 hours hiking Brighton
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1 brat
1 bun
2 tbs sour kraut
mustard
2 handfuls potato chips
-
1 cup potato salad

53

Well, my attempt to keep track of what I ate while in the desert was a complete failure... but what I can tell you, is that it was entirely too much CRAP. I'm thinking about not weighing myself this week because I really am about to kick myself into high gear and make this shiz happen.

Today.
2 tortillas
2 Tbs PB
1 tsp honey
-
1 high fiber granola bar.
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2 turkey dogs
1 tortilla
lettuce
mustard
-
WHY the heck is the gym always closed on holidays?? I mean, come on... we all know everyone eats too much on holidays and especially when the holiday creates a long weekend. This is EXACTLY when people NEED to work out. Pay your employees double time and open the ef up!! Mother truckers.
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1 bag spring greens
fat free dressing

58

Haven't been to the gym in quite a while, I really need to do that ASAP... but living life has been entirely too much fun. Playing with a new beau and trying to get a new job... there has yet to be a dull moment.

TODAY.
1 tortilla (9:30)
1 Tbs pb
-
1 monster absolute zero
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1 shot sailor jerry
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Birthday (tomorrow really) dinner ~
Sushi: 1 1/2 rolls
1 seaweed salad
1 large saporo





Thursday - Monday I'll be disappearing into the desert and most likely won't have any phone service (let alone a charged phone) so I won't be posting. I will attempt to keep a physical journal or what I eat and drink to the best of my ability/convenience, but don't know how well that will go. I'm hoping that my self consciousness of being in a bathing suit and shorts around people I will stay active and limit beer intake to avoid bloating. HAHA... that sounds so lame but it's what I'm thinking...ergo, it's what I'm posting in this blog.

Wednesday weigh-in

175
Back on track...time to step it up and rock this challenge. Boom!

59

Whoa... lost a few days in there while my life took a new adventure, but I'm not complaining. I've been pretty good with food. At my bbq on Sunday I only had one turkey dog, a few pieces of zuccini and didn't overdo it with chips and salsa. Had a few beers, but mostly just diet dr. pepper. HAHA I'm a dork, ah well. But yeah, life is a little crazy and I'm going to try to do more mobile blogging for this particular blog so that I really am keeping track of all of my food intake.

TODAY.
1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
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1 tortilla
4 chunks of orange chicken
Greens
Spicy mustard
-
GOTTA work on making sure I really am getting my water every day...I've been such a slacker, blaaah. Feeling like I'm really looking better physically, just not so sure if I'm losing any poundage at this point...and THAT is frustrating.
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2/3 chicken breast
peppers, peas, artichoke hearts
-
handfull of tortilla chips
salsa

62

Didn't snowboard today... woke up with CRAZY cramps and just wan't happy about not being able to stand up straight.

TODAY.
3 packets of sugar free oatmeal (9:30)
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1 light string cheese (12)
1 granola bar
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2 coors lights (4pm)
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STARVING!!!!! So I was naughty
1 hot dog (7p)
1 personal bag of jalapeno chips
big salad (not too bad, I didn't eat the cheese and made some light ranch+vinegar dressing)
-

63

Was going to go snowboarding today, but Dick Bass (who I affectionately call Cock Trout) decided that Snowbird should be CLOSED today!!! MOTHER TRUCKER!!!

TODAY.
1 Tortilla
3 slices deli turkey
-
1 rockstar recovery
1 coffee
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2 light string cheese (11)
2 cups carrots
1/2 cup dressing
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1/2 cup AllBran (1p)
1 cup natural apple sauce
-
1 can chuck light tuna (4p)
1/2 cup frozen pees
2 Tbs fat free miracle whip
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2 light string cheese (5p)
-
1 can progresso light soup (6:00)
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2 packages no sugar oatmeal (8:oo)
-
GEEZE I ate a lot, seems like it, today... I might have more oatmeal later or maybe 100 calorie pack of popcorn. It being "that time" does make me hungry... but I need to drink more water!!!!
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1 weightwatchers yogurt
1/2 cup blackberries
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon


FUCK I ate so much today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too many snacks. I gotta figure out how to cure my sugar cravings when I'm menstrual because this is ridiculous.

64

another rainy day... and to make things worse, the new job is no more. I came home yesterday crying because I felt so lied to. I go in this morning and they sit me down and say things aren't working out. Ya think?! They lied to me. They made me a sales person making cold calls. I've never done sales in the first place, they told me I'd do that part of the time and no cold calls... so, um, anyhow... MOVING FORWARD. Applying for any/everything I can find right now just so I can get some income and keep looking for the right fit.


TODAY.
1 light string cheese
2 cups steamed broccoli
1/2 cup dressing w/fiber
-
15 minutes bike
30 minute Hills Plus on elliptical
1 mile cool down on treadmill
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1 light string cheese (8)
-
1 chicken breast (9:30)
3 sun dried half tomatoes
green beans
mushroooms
-
4oz black Heart (generic sailor jerry) w/diet dr. pepper

65

TODAY.
2 tortillas w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon
1 light string cheese
-
4'' subway sandwich -ham, mustard, veggies
turkey & veggies out of another one of these (didn't eat bread, nor cheese)
-
flax seed cereal (4:30)
almond milk
-
tortilla (6)
w/the usual
2 cups carrots
dressing (no fat, added fiber)
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1/2 cup AllBran
2/3 cup natural apple sauce
1/4 tsp cinnamon

wednesday weigh-in

Today: 178

@#%$(*#&$*#$(@#)!@#&#)!@*^$!@$_ I'm so frustrated. I don't understand how my "bad days" are putting that much weight back on... I know I overdo it, but it's never on "naughty" foods... this is my period week so that may account for a little bit, but seriously, I'm frustrated and need to re-assess and make some changes!

66

Tortilla (8)
1/2 cheeseless omelet
Apple
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SmartOne (5 pts) (noon)
Yogurt
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Salad (5:15)
Spinach, fat free dressing, chicken, almonds, black beans, tomatoes, sprouts
Small piece of french bread
One strawberry w/chocolate
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Long day at work... 12 hours... definitely wanna hit the gym afterwards, been sitting for entirely too long
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GYM.
30 minutes Hills Plus on elliptical -350 calories
15 minutes on sitting bike -210 calories
3x10 reverse push ups
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2 cups raw carrots
dressing
-
Sweet potato (10)
spray butter

67

My severe overeating in the past few days has me feeling... BLAAAAAH
I didn't even record all the crap I ate last night because there was just entirely too much to keep track of. Nothing was really "unhealthy" but the amounts that I gobbled down were just uncool. I am losing steam. I really need motivation.
I'm getting my you-know this week, so I'm feeling extra icky... but seriously, in general, I just feel like crap.
I got sunburned yesterday and that makes me NOT want to go workout... my skin is just going to hurt. UGG. I'll go...

TODAY.
Granola bar (8am)
3 plain tortillas
-
apple
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salad from walmart (WTF I finally read the health info and the dressing is 450 calories because ONE of those salads is labled as 4.5 servings?!? WTF!!)
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2 tortillas w/spray butter & splenda (technically this favorite treat of mine is zero points)
-
GYM.
35 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -425 cal
15 minutes Hill Interval on arc trainer -210
10 minute walking cool down on treadmill
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1 bowl high fiber cereal
almond milk
-
half omelet (saving other half for breakfast) [9p]
: 4 egg whites, 1 whole egg, green pepper, red pepper, white mushrooms
2 Tbs ketchup

68

Been eaing too much...when I have nothing to do, I nosh :-(

TODAY
Cereal (9am)
Almond milk
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2 tortillas w/ spray butter, splenda and cinnamon (12)
-
Granola bar (12:30)
1 tsp PB
1 1/2 cups red grapes
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Bike ride home from park
Granola bar (3:30p)
2 tsp pb
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Salad (spinach, artichoke hearts, dried pears, broccoli, pecans)
-

69

Been eating a lot lately as I'm not as busy...

This morning.
Half a 3 egg ommlet with mushrooms and cheese
2 pieces of wheat toast lightly buttered
hashbrowns (very dry, not too greasy)
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2 tortillas w/spenda, spray butter & cinnamon (11am)
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GYM.
10 minute warm up Random on sitting bike
25 minutes Hill Plus on elliptical -280 calories
leg press
-
1 rockstar recovery
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1 tortilla (5pm)
4 slices fat free deli turkey
spinach
mustard & horse radish
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1 high fiber granola bar
1 tsp PB
-
steamed broccoli & raw carrots (I think I ate my weight haha)
dressing
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24oz soy chai latte
-
1 1/2 cups red grapes (9pm)

70 ?

Well, Blogger decided to crap out on me for 2 days and I couldn't post anything...

Friday, day 70 I ate too much.. again. a few bad days there

Went snowboarding at the bird for 4 hours, had a pbr on the tram deck... and then had a fish burrito. Didn't eat the whole thing. Dumped it out and ate the protein out of it.

Apple w/PB
a few tortillas

Rockstar recovery... no full record, ugg.

Then I had 2 beers in the evening.

71

Today is errands and me-time... I need to try hard to avoid just sitting around an noshing because that will get me in trouble.

TODAY.
2 high fiber granola bars (8am)
2 tsp PB
1 apple
-
1 tortilla (10:45)
3 slices deli turkey
salsa
spinach
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2 tortillas w/spray butter and cinnamon&splenda (11:30)
-

I made meatloaf for dinner and ate like 4 helpings. I need to learn to cook for 2... not 8.

72

This morning's weigh-in made me feel good... but I still need to up my game. This whole "only seeing a lower number every other week" thing isn't ok. I want to see that number drop.
I know I'm building some muscle but I'm just retoning what I already have. We all know I'm already buff enough HAHA. I clearly have another 15 pounds of body fat that I can shed...and I will. I am.

I'm not planning on working out today. It's my last day at my old job!! I have my body wrap today (since yesterday I forgot my clothes). I might go for a walk or something this evening once I get home if it's nice out.

TODAY.
1 tortilla (7:00)
1 Tbs PB
1 tortilla
spray butter, splenda & cinnamon
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1 medium granny smith apple (9:30)
1 high fiber granola bar
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2 light string cheese (11:00)
1 litre water
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Subway salad (12:00)
Greens, veggies
Honey mustard and vinegar (no oil, no fat)
oregano &pepper
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FormoStar body wrap (1:30)

Wednesday weigh-in

Today's weight: 175 Progress!!

73

I'm getting anxious... I know 100 days is a lot of time, but I cheated and weighed myself~ NO change!! I'll still weigh myself tomorrow, but ugg. I should really be seeing 1-2lbs a week if I'm doing things right. So, I'm not doing something right =/

I will be drinking at least 2 litres of water daily (not including water consumed during work outs).
I am going to pick back up the Beck Diet Solution and get back to practicing those good habbits:
-sit down to eat
-drink a glass of water before each meal
-write motivation card & read it several times a day
etc

Moved my body wrap to tomorrow because I packed my gym bag this morning and then left it on my bed! So, I'll go home after work to snag my bag...go swoop up my friend who is coming with me to the gym today, and just go work out. Today I need to kick my butt!
I also need to go grocery shopping tonight so that I can, again, fill my house with healthy foods as to avoid random gas station trips pre-snowboarding etc where I end up consuming high-sodium and often fatty foods.

TODAY
1 spoon full of PB
-
1 litre of water (11:49am)
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1 can progresso light chowder (1:00pm)
1 red grapefruit
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1 rockstar recovery
1 high fiber granola bar
1 Tbs PB
-
GYM: 30 minute Hills Plus on Elliptical -380 calories
15 minute Intervals on arc trainer -210 calories
Obliques and lower abs
1 mile walking cool down (17 minutes) with 10 minutes of 3lb weights doing shoulder and bicep toning
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3 cups carrots
1/2 cup light Caesar dressing w/lots of vinegar

74

I'm a quarter of the way through my challenge... but I still have a long way to go. 100 days is a pretty long challenge. I know I probably could have really pushed myself to do a challenge like this in a much shorter period of time but I think this more drawn-out process will help to reset my brain with all of the positive habits that need to be part of my regular routine and I will be more likely to continue with the healthy lifestyle well after my 100 days are over.

Yesterday was definitely a personal disappointment - the amount I ate compared to the level of activity for the day was not balanced and so I'm a mad at myself for that. I am not getting my body wrap today due to working late but I will be going tomorrow after work so that I do have my detox before my weekly weigh-in. I'm going to the gym today, but probably not tomorrow (but who knows, tomorrow I might feel like going after my wrap and that would be great, but I'm unsure at this point what my time will look like.)


TODAY.
Beef Jerky (130 calories ~ I need to go shopping, I had it left over from the weekend and didn't have my normal breakfast foods in the house~ I need to shop)
1 Tbs PB
-
1 rockstar recovery
-
1 litre water
-
1 can progresso chicken & wild rice
-
1 pear
-
GYM:
30 minutes on bike -285 calories
15 minutes on elypitical -180 calories
1/2 mile walking cool down on the treadmill
-
pollock fillet cooked in nothing but water from the melting frozen veggies
spices
veggies
sweet potato
1/2 cup mushroom spaghetti sauce
-
1 skinny cow ice cream treat
2 glasses of water
-
1 bowl high fiber cereal
2/3 cup almond milk

75

Woke up SO sore from biking... wow. My butt hurts. Decided it's a hiking day.

2 Tortillas
2 tsp PB
Beef Jerky (120 calories)
1 pear
-
Chorizo scramble @ Jail House Cafe in Moab
-
Hiking in Arches NP (nothing too strenuous, but lots of fun)
-
Raisins & Almonds
1 bag kettle chips (personal size) ~ yeah, Super naughty day... ugg.
1 spicy v8
-
10 chicken nuggets
3oz mushroom spaghetti sauce
-
McFlurry w/All Bran cereal (super high fiber) and fiber powder

Overall a really bad day with food... I over did it. Back to the grind this week...new beginnings and fresh starts. I'm pumped. I had a great weekend.

76

Woke up in Moab =)

1 Tortilla w/PB
1 pear
small piece of danish (too sweet)

15 miles of mountain biking. 10 miles on the Porcupine Single Track, 5 on the road.

3 pieces of pizza
3 bowls of salad
-
10oz bottle apple juice
4oz Yukon Jack

77

I couldn't fall asleep last night... around 3am my stomach was growling like CRAZY so I decided to get up. I drank a big glass of water but decided I wanted to eat something... so, being the very random-type craving person I am I had:
-another salsa/black bean/spinach/zero point tortilla wrap
-tortilla & 1 tsp PB

I know I'm not working out tonight, but I will be mountain biking tomorrow and sunday (and probably some hiking) so I'm going to pack my food for the weekend carefully and do my best to really be good so that next week's weigh-in shows progress.

Then when I woke up this morning, again I felt EXTREMELY hungry.
3 tortillas
3 tsp PB
1 medium apple
-
I really want to drink a LOT of water today, so my goal is 2 litres while at work. I need to buy more crystal light or the like because it really helps me down water faster....otherwise I'm slow and slack on my water intake.
-
1 litre water
-
1 red plum
-
SmartOne meal (2pts)
-
There have been BOXES of donuts in the break room all flippin day. WHY can't the perks committee ever offer healthy snacks?! Seriously, it's almost painful how badly the smell of that fried dough makes me want to stuff my face...NOT the easiest environment for a recovering o.e. I have don't really well at resisting so far today (one more hour at work to go), but dang... I'm craving sugar!!
-
1 flatOut tortilla
1/3 chicken breast, plain
spinach
1 packet tacotime hot sauce
-
1 bowl fiberPlus cereal
1/2 cup almond milk, unsweetened
1 packet splenda
-
I'll probably have a beer or two tonight

I'm going to be away from my comptuer for a few days but I will be recording the things I eat and posting my food/activity logs when I have internet again!

my struggle

People ask me why I record everything I eat... why am I doing this.
Well, as you know (if you've been following along) I used to be fat (I'm trying to find more pictures so that I can share). And well, for a long time I had a serious problem. An addiction of sorts. I am, and will always be (as any former addict is), a recovering Compulsive Over Eater.
Back before I lost the 60lbs I joined OA = Over-eaters Anonymous. It works just like any other 12 step program.
Wondering what that's like? Well, ask me sometime...rambling about my obsession with food and eating until it hurts isn't what I want to post here.

So, pairing the strength I gained from learning to conquer my addiction with the Beck approach of combining cognitive therapy with changing the way I eat, worked for me...I reframed my way of thinking and practiced great habbits, which allowed me to find success.
THEN I GOT LAZY (and life was pretty out of whack as I left WI etc but I'll jut own up to my laziness).

Now that I have put my foot down and am piecing the life I WANT together, I have the tools and know what I need to do. I'm doing this on display to the general public because I'm too scared of humiliation to back out when I know people are watching me. So... here I am =)

Here are 2 cool resources:
Overeaters Anonymous

Beck Solution

78

I woke up today and was SO hungry... I have no idea why, so I ended up mowing down the 2nd half of my sandwich from last night.
I plan on going to the gym tonight and getting some cardio time in, also planning on doing lower back and tricep toning while I'm there.

TODAY.
1/2 turkey club (from last night without the bread)
FiberOne granola bar
1 medium apple
-
1/2 litre water
1 mango
-
FiberOne granola bar
2 light string cheese
-
GYM: 35 minutes on the elliptical, level 12 -over 400 calories
lower back, obliques and shoulder toning
-
1 litre water
-
3 tortillas
1/2 avacado
1/2 cup black beens
1/3 cup salsa
cilantro
-
vitamin water Zero

79

I bit disappointed that the #s aren't changing faster for my weigh-ins. Last time I lost a bunch of weight it felt like every week I was SO pumped because I was seeing the digits decrease... but this time is much slower. It's kind of frustrating but I know I'm doing everything I should be-- I just need to pay more attention to details.

From now on I'll be logging what I eat & my activity as it happens throughout the day, rather than list the activity after the food log. This way I can really look at how I'm laying out my day. I will mark where in the daily layout I finish each litre of water as well... this needs to be a big focus for me as I know I tend to get snack-y when I'm dehydrated.


TODAY.
1 FlatOut flatbread/tortilla
2 Tbs PB
1 Rockstar recovery
-
2 light string cheese
-
Street taco salad: meat from 3 chicken tacos (no tortillas) [I ordered 4 but the old lady working is way more stingy than her husband and gave me significantly less meat than I normally get), lots of lettuce, 1 jalapeno, salsa, 2 Tbs pineapple tidbits, cilantro.

-
1 litre of water
-
1 pear
1/2 litre of water
FiberOne granola bar
-
1/2 turkey club sandwich (no mayo) at Fiddler's Elbow
green salad as my side
1 Epic Amber
1 Full Sail Amber

Wednesday weigh-in

Weight: 177


Same last week... UGG!
I am definitely starting to see & feel my body tightening up and slimming down.
Time to focus on water intake and cutting out fats late in the day (no more pb after dinner)

80

Not sure if I'll make it to the gym tonight because I'm going to start training by observing/co-facilitating a group tonight with my new company... but I'm hoping to make it to the gym LATE for at least a little while on the eliptical trainer-- since tomorrow is my weekly weigh-in I really want to try and get a workout in the night before my morning scale-session =)

FOOD.
Breakfast.
FlatOut (flatbread tortilla) w/ 2 Tbs of PB
Snack.
1/2 pink grapefruit
10 saltine crackers
Lunch.
SmartOne meal (2pts)
2 light string cheese
1/2 pink grapefruit.
Snack.
150 calories of beef jerky (after such a long day working I NEEDED protein before hitting the gym)
Dinner.
BIG SALAD. Dark greens, black beans, salsa, 1/2 avacado, 2 Tbs ranch, fiber, vinegar, basil & oregano

Water goal? YES!


ACTIVITY.
Gym. 5 minute bike warm up.
25 minutes Random on sitting bike -200 calories
10 minutes Random on elyptical trainer + 5 minute cool down -150 calories
Unplanned.
Nothing that sticks out today...

Zero Points

On the old WeightWatchers point system (not the new points plus) I found a lot of ZERO POINT FOODS!! OMG and I love them... points are determined by balancing calories, fat and fiber.
50 calories = 1 point
12 grams of fat = 1 point
5 grams of fiber = -1 point

So... of course all the green vegitables are zero... superfoods like blackberries and blueberries are zero... natural apple sauce etc...

Since WW didn't count half points, you do have to be careful with some zero point finds because when you eat enough of them, they do become points.

So... a few fabulous ZERO (or almost) POINT FOODS to check out!!

- MISSION carb balance tortillas
- FlatOut flat bread
- FiberOne Yogurt
- FiberOne Cereals
- FiberOne Cereal/granola bars
- Quaker high fiber Oatmeal
- Progresso Light soups
-
I'll add more to this list soon, but for now I need to get to bed!!

81

Crazy day of catch-up-with-life... had my follow up interview and GOT THE NEW JOB! Eeep! So pumped. Life is so good lately. Dating, weather, snowboarding, great friends, new job... YEAH!!!!

Ok, so today.
I went for my body wrap, but I think I was stressing pretty hard about if I was going to get this new job or not... I got SO many hot spots. They were adding layers of washclothes all over me but my body just wasn't having it. So, after 30 minutes (they are usually 50) I had them just end my session. I still feel very good, I sweat out a lot and will go back at it next week.

FOOD.
Day.
3 FiberOne granola bars
1 apple
1 pear
1 flat bread (1pt) w/spray butter, splenda and cinnamon (mmm)
Dinner.
Best Salad Ever: 6oz beef tendertoin (cut off all fat before cooking)
LOTS of dark greens
1 anaheim pepper
4oz salza
2 Tbs real ranch dressing w/4 Tbs vinegar, loads of fiber powder and cilantro
2oz grated cheese (I normally don't add this but I was celebrating)
1oz pine nuts
Dessert.
2 flatbread tortillas w/PB


ACTIVITY.
Gym.
15 minutes Random on stationary bike -180 calories
20 minutes on Treadmill (ran for 4 minutes... longest I've actually RUN in forever!) - 200 calories
Leg lifts and lower ab work on the mat
Unplanned.
Parked far away at the grocery store and job interview.

82

FOOD.
2 fiberOne granola bars
1 pear
1 light string cheese
16oz PBR (just over half my 24oz)
2 glasses (12oz) water
1 garlic burger (half the bun) ~ naughty but after riding, WOW
1 granola bar
2 cups raw carrots
1/2 cup light ranch w/vinegar and fiber
2 cups red grapes
1 granola bar

ACTIVITY.
Snowboarding at Snowbird
Unplanned.
Walked across big parking lot to ShopKo then to Big5 and back to my car.