7/25/13 (weigh in)

Weigh-in at 9am this morning: 171.7 :)))) That means I'm -25!!!! I can't wait to see that middle digit change!

Nervous about going home this weekend. I have to STAY OUT OF THE KITCHEN!!! Ma always has so many snack foods (nuts, crackers, leftovers, PB, chocolate chips, potato & tortilla chips) and I'm so weak with those temptations. I have 2 days to mentally prepare :)

9:00
100 - apple

9:45
150 - 1/2 cup oats
100 - Greek yogurt

12:45
220 - sweet potato (just microwaved and then cut open face)
70 - 2oz deli ham
35 - pepper mix
10 - 6 grape tomatoes

2:30
90 - chicken sausage
50 - cabbage, spinach, pepper mix & mustard

3:30
100 - Greek yogurt
15 - 1oz organic blueberries

bike to work, lead run/walk group (about 2.2 miles), bike to gym, 15 min elliptical and then 30 minutes of core, bike home
220 - Grabbed a cliff bar at work ate most of it

10:00p
330 - protein pancakes recipe from yesterday... added more water to thin out the batter, but then added fiber :)
30 - blueberries

Trying to down a ton of water so that I don't feel hungry anymore...

11:30p
100 - Greek yogurt
.1700.

7/1/13 (July Goals)

It's a new month! Pretty stoked for summer :) Hopefully the rain will stop ruining my fun and it will stay beautiful out for the whole month... ah, wishful ;)

GOALS FOR JULY:
Planking - 5 minute front plank and 3 minutes on each side (current PRs are 2:22 front and 1:01 side)
[check out slambooyfitness.com for the challenge details and follow on Instagram]
Running - run 2 miles without walking [I can do with when I'm with a group, but solo I haven't done a mile yet...hoping my achilles cooperates]
Weight - I would like to get down to 170... I've been up closer to 180 the past few days, but since mid last month I hit 175 I am confident that if I stay focused on my food and drink enough water, I can do this!

So... my kidney infection is still hurting today. If it still hurts by this evening I'll go back to Urgent Care and find out what's going on. This is not fun.
Enough about icky stuff.

9:00a
100 - red delicious apple

10:30a
180 - proats

My heel is still sore, so I'm still waiting on running again... I don't want to risk re-injuring my achilles! But I can go for walks and hit the gym. My body aches and discomfort make these difficult, but I have to tough through. We'll see what the day brings. LOTS of work to do (plus searching for a 2nd job) today...

2:00p
360 - chicken
70 - peas
I needed a caloric meal in there today... definitely going to the gym later and likely for a walk... feeling good about where I am calorie wise so far for the day.

5:00p
Feeling anxious... wish I could just go RUN but my stupid Achilles :( grrrrr endless frustration.
I'm also obsessively thinking about guacamole. I need to eat something to make the cravings go away so I can effectively go shopping and get myself to the gym today.

Went for a 3.1 mile walk, 40 minutes. [- 400 calories]

8:30p
780 - Subway footlong veggie patty sandwich (honey oat, ALL veggies [no onion, no pickle], mustard & vinegar)
holy crap I was starving... scarfed that.

Was pretty torn about getting bread or anything for dinner, but I was SO low for my daily calories and I needed to go grocery shopping [NEVER GO SHOPPING WHEN YOU'RE HUNGRY] so I went back and forth with my pseudo-sponsor and decided it was ok. Just making sure my cravings stay under control tonight and tomorrow!

9:30p
180 - pudding :)

back and better than ever

Well, it's time. Time to keep myself accountable again so I've come back to the blog. 100dayshapeup was a bust as I let some of life's hurdles become road blocks that I saw as brick walls rather than just a challenge I could jump over and move past. But now, I'm back... I have a whole new life and I'm SHAPING IT UP! I moved to Chicago at the end of 2012 and early in 2013 (about March) I decided it was time to REALLY focus on what I was eating and what I'm doing to get the body I want and I know I can achieve. I stopped using a calorie counter ap that was telling me to eat too little (My Fitness Pal) and consulted with a nutrition expert. EAT TO LOSE was a whole new concept for me. I had no idea that the diets I'd used in the past weren't working because my body was slowing down into starvation mode. So... for the past 2 months I've been pushing myself to eat clean and train hard. No more 500 calorie elliptical workouts. I am training my entire body using High Intensity Interval Training techniques and weight lifting circuits. I will share details in later blog posts. If you read back to my old posts, you'll know I've struggled with Compulsive Over Eating. This addiction never goes away. It's like being an alcoholic or a drug addict... except that my addiction isn't a substance I can cut out of my life-- you can't NOT eat! So, I'm still working on ways to keep myself away from my trigger foods and stay on track. I'm going to use this blog, again, to keep track of my daily food intake as well as my workouts. I will weigh in on Wednesdays and try to get my body fat % tracked as accurately as possible (this is tough). I started at 196.6 lbs. My current weight is around 175-177 (depending on water/salt/sleep). I will do my best to keep my posts honest and accurate. I am going to look for some honest photos so I can show progress (and history).

wednesday weigh-in

Today: 178

@#%$(*#&$*#$(@#)!@#&#)!@*^$!@$_ I'm so frustrated. I don't understand how my "bad days" are putting that much weight back on... I know I overdo it, but it's never on "naughty" foods... this is my period week so that may account for a little bit, but seriously, I'm frustrated and need to re-assess and make some changes!

Wednesday weigh-in

Today's weight: 175 Progress!!

Wednesday weigh-in

Weight: 177


Same last week... UGG!
I am definitely starting to see & feel my body tightening up and slimming down.
Time to focus on water intake and cutting out fats late in the day (no more pb after dinner)

wednesday weigh-in

Today's weight: 177

PROGRESS!!! :-)
That's 6 pounds down from my start, 2 weeks ago. Definitely a safe rate.
I did feel kind of dehydrated this morning so that could be a bit lower than it should be, but I'm always going to record exactly what my little IKEA scale says on Wednesday mornings. I put it in the same place on my kitchen floor and always have on a tshirt and chonies.

My focus for this next week is going to be to up my water intake. I've been trying to drink at least one litre while I'm at work every day, but even that hasn't been happening every day. So, the goal for the next 7 posts is to record if I drink my daily litre at work... I should try to drink 2 a day, but I do best with small-step goals. 1 first, then eventually 2 =)

honestly shocking

As I have decided to start posting the link to this blog on my facebook and share it via email with friends and loved ones...I've been getting some feedback that I wasn't expecting.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! YOU WEIGH OVER 180 POUNDS?!?!?!?!!? OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ADMIT THAT!!

WTF people... really? Is honestly really that shocking? Why is it such a big deal for a woman who is NOT fat to honestly share her weight. If you look back at pictures of me when I was my thinnest, I was 155lbs~ and all those healthy pictures the comments flooded in for, I was 160-165. Yeah, for me, 160-165 looks great. Shocked by that number? How about you step back and think about this for a minute:

The average American adult female is 5'4" and weighs 140lbs and size 14
The average female we see on television is 5'11 and weighs 117lbs...
Though size 14 is average size in the US, it is the least commonly purchaced size of clothing... odd?
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I'm open and honest about what I weigh. Most of my life I was made to feel that this NUMBER was something to be ashamed of. I'm not ashamed. I am not a small person. I am a tall, muscular, beautiful woman... and it took me over 20 years to start believing that.
Now that I am back to focusing on getting myself healthy again, I am sharing every thought, calorie, experience and struggle... in hopes that maybe thoughts from friends (or even strangers) will help to keep me motivated and working hard on myself so that I can reach my final goals.
Even if I get zero feedback, no comments... no help... I wanted to keep myself accountable for all of my actions and I set this goal for myself. I couldn't think of a better way to really be accountable than something that others had public access too and I couldn't hide from ~ of course I could LIE, but what's the point?! I have a goal, it will be reached.
Ok, enough rambling... back to work!!

wednesday weigh-in

Today's weight: 183... same as last week =/
I'm ok with this because it's that time of the month and I'm holding water... I also really haven't worked out and I've had a very slow start to this process.
Next week, we WILL see progress!!