8/24 control

So...for me, the flexibility of aiming for a NET goal each day isn't working for me. It is too easy for me to slip in trigger foods that lead to uncontrollable cravings and then binging. Like last night...I tagged on another 500 calories (of clean, healthy things) at home because I couldn't get my mind off food. Luckily I don't have bad foods at home, but still...calories are calories and I need to control.
Will power is like a muscle, the more you work it the stronger it gets!!
Having the white carbs I allowed myself yesterday was too soon. I am working hard to not fear food anymore. I'm striving to just love healthy and roll with it when "real/normal" food is presented and I eat it. A few weeks of major focus and I know I can get there!!!
So, for now... with my BMR at 1547 and I have definitely increased my average daily activity... so I'm going to aim for about 1800 every day. Scooby's site says 1900-2100 but knowing my body, I feel like that's too much for right now... also, shooting lower will allow me to feel less anxious about a cheat here and there. So, going back to a consistent number no matter what my workouts are. Different strategies work for different people... and for me, I need more structure when it comes to food because of my personal issues.
Was up late (anxiety and food thoughts) so I slept in.
10a
150 - 1/2c oats
100 - Greek yogurt
80 - apple

12:00
100 - banana

3:15
120 - Greek yogurt
80 - >1/4c oats

Was starving after shopping and grabbed Subway... I will not fear food!
6:00
400 - 6" veggie patty on honey oat, no cheese, all veggies (no onion no pickles), vinegar, pepper, oregano

Bike to/from gym -135ish
Cardio & core -500 or so

8:45
200 - 24oz green beans
75 - 3/4c spaghetti sauce
140 - 2 original vegan Boca burgers

Bike to/from store -80 cal
10:30pm
300 - 2 pints of Artic Zero... yep, 2 hahaha I was jonesing for ice cream for like 3 days and after being good today with my food I knew it was an Artic Zero kind of night. I'm stuffed :) SO stoked for tomorrow morning's workout with Lauren!
.1745.