8/14

Have you ever been half asleep...totally relaxed and wanting to be dreaming, but you're still aware that you're sleeping? That's what last night was...all night. I'm exhausted today because of no rem sleep :( ugggg

8:30
150 - 1/2 cup oats
100 - Greek yogurt
100 - banana

Been getting questions a lot on IG about cravings and cheat meals...I'll make sure to take some time later to write my thoughts on these.

Morning lifting:

12:00
150 - beef jerky
200 - protein bar
110 - veggie straws

2:00
60 - kombucha

5:15
330 - unwich #12 no mayo from JJ

8:00
50 - 1/2 bag slaw
50 - 1/2c spaghetti sauce
20 - Roma tomato
20 - boiled red cabbage
100 - deli ham
.1440.

Truth is...I had 3 mini cupcakes at work and a glass of champagne. I'm really down today. I'm getting treated like junk both at work and in my personal life. I'm feeling like I have no worth. I need to spend the $ and get my certification materials so I can be a trainer...ugg...I just have NO money right now!! Anyway...I might have to go buy chocolate...or Arctic zero... or both...I need comfort and don't know anyone to get a hug from :-\