Last night I over did it...probably double my daily normal caloric limit. I need to learn to say no...all over again. To stay away from temptations. I know what's behind that cabinet door-- nothing that I would want to let anyone else see me eat. Why do I eat in secret? Why do I allow my naughty, dangerous addiction to have control. I want to reach my goals!! How do you beat that demon? The one who controls your actions before your brain even registers what you're doing?
Time to really look at how to break away from addiction and horrible habits. It may be time to get a sponsor again :-/
8:30
100 - apple
300 - giant spoonfuls of PB :-/
5.75 mile run/walk in my home town.
12:00
250 - Greek yogurt, blueberries, rasperies, ice
100 - broccoli w/mustards
Nervous already about the rest of the day. I'm supposed to go do all sorts of stuff with my mom, but I can't stop thinking about food. I'm scared.
300 - peanuts... and I got out of there
6:00
150 - oats w/added fiber
100 - banana
7:30
100 - slaw
100 - sweet potato
9:00
100 - Greek yogurt + fiber
.1600
Well, I have a major food baby after these naughty days, but I'm ready to be on track this week and kick my butt in the gym. My friends are ready for my calls when I'm tempted to binge and I'm so grateful I have them (even though they're far away). I'm going to look into local OA meetings and get focused so that next time I go home I am stronger than I was this time.
Ummm...when you figure it out let me know. I eat in secret a lot and then hide the evidence. I can't let anyone know I mess up :(
ReplyDeleteAndy... I used to go to Overeaters Annonymous (12 step) and it really helped a lot. Compulsive over eating is an eating disorder and needs treatment. Figuring out what is going to work for you to keep yourself accountable is key to stopping the bad habit/addiction.
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