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Woke up in Moab =)

1 Tortilla w/PB
1 pear
small piece of danish (too sweet)

15 miles of mountain biking. 10 miles on the Porcupine Single Track, 5 on the road.

3 pieces of pizza
3 bowls of salad
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10oz bottle apple juice
4oz Yukon Jack

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I couldn't fall asleep last night... around 3am my stomach was growling like CRAZY so I decided to get up. I drank a big glass of water but decided I wanted to eat something... so, being the very random-type craving person I am I had:
-another salsa/black bean/spinach/zero point tortilla wrap
-tortilla & 1 tsp PB

I know I'm not working out tonight, but I will be mountain biking tomorrow and sunday (and probably some hiking) so I'm going to pack my food for the weekend carefully and do my best to really be good so that next week's weigh-in shows progress.

Then when I woke up this morning, again I felt EXTREMELY hungry.
3 tortillas
3 tsp PB
1 medium apple
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I really want to drink a LOT of water today, so my goal is 2 litres while at work. I need to buy more crystal light or the like because it really helps me down water faster....otherwise I'm slow and slack on my water intake.
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1 litre water
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1 red plum
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SmartOne meal (2pts)
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There have been BOXES of donuts in the break room all flippin day. WHY can't the perks committee ever offer healthy snacks?! Seriously, it's almost painful how badly the smell of that fried dough makes me want to stuff my face...NOT the easiest environment for a recovering o.e. I have don't really well at resisting so far today (one more hour at work to go), but dang... I'm craving sugar!!
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1 flatOut tortilla
1/3 chicken breast, plain
spinach
1 packet tacotime hot sauce
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1 bowl fiberPlus cereal
1/2 cup almond milk, unsweetened
1 packet splenda
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I'll probably have a beer or two tonight

I'm going to be away from my comptuer for a few days but I will be recording the things I eat and posting my food/activity logs when I have internet again!

my struggle

People ask me why I record everything I eat... why am I doing this.
Well, as you know (if you've been following along) I used to be fat (I'm trying to find more pictures so that I can share). And well, for a long time I had a serious problem. An addiction of sorts. I am, and will always be (as any former addict is), a recovering Compulsive Over Eater.
Back before I lost the 60lbs I joined OA = Over-eaters Anonymous. It works just like any other 12 step program.
Wondering what that's like? Well, ask me sometime...rambling about my obsession with food and eating until it hurts isn't what I want to post here.

So, pairing the strength I gained from learning to conquer my addiction with the Beck approach of combining cognitive therapy with changing the way I eat, worked for me...I reframed my way of thinking and practiced great habbits, which allowed me to find success.
THEN I GOT LAZY (and life was pretty out of whack as I left WI etc but I'll jut own up to my laziness).

Now that I have put my foot down and am piecing the life I WANT together, I have the tools and know what I need to do. I'm doing this on display to the general public because I'm too scared of humiliation to back out when I know people are watching me. So... here I am =)

Here are 2 cool resources:
Overeaters Anonymous

Beck Solution

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I woke up today and was SO hungry... I have no idea why, so I ended up mowing down the 2nd half of my sandwich from last night.
I plan on going to the gym tonight and getting some cardio time in, also planning on doing lower back and tricep toning while I'm there.

TODAY.
1/2 turkey club (from last night without the bread)
FiberOne granola bar
1 medium apple
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1/2 litre water
1 mango
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FiberOne granola bar
2 light string cheese
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GYM: 35 minutes on the elliptical, level 12 -over 400 calories
lower back, obliques and shoulder toning
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1 litre water
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3 tortillas
1/2 avacado
1/2 cup black beens
1/3 cup salsa
cilantro
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vitamin water Zero

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I bit disappointed that the #s aren't changing faster for my weigh-ins. Last time I lost a bunch of weight it felt like every week I was SO pumped because I was seeing the digits decrease... but this time is much slower. It's kind of frustrating but I know I'm doing everything I should be-- I just need to pay more attention to details.

From now on I'll be logging what I eat & my activity as it happens throughout the day, rather than list the activity after the food log. This way I can really look at how I'm laying out my day. I will mark where in the daily layout I finish each litre of water as well... this needs to be a big focus for me as I know I tend to get snack-y when I'm dehydrated.


TODAY.
1 FlatOut flatbread/tortilla
2 Tbs PB
1 Rockstar recovery
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2 light string cheese
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Street taco salad: meat from 3 chicken tacos (no tortillas) [I ordered 4 but the old lady working is way more stingy than her husband and gave me significantly less meat than I normally get), lots of lettuce, 1 jalapeno, salsa, 2 Tbs pineapple tidbits, cilantro.

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1 litre of water
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1 pear
1/2 litre of water
FiberOne granola bar
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1/2 turkey club sandwich (no mayo) at Fiddler's Elbow
green salad as my side
1 Epic Amber
1 Full Sail Amber