7/29/13 - almost the end of the month!

Well, it's almost the end of the month and I'm looking back at my goals. I can run a mile without walking, but that's the only one I reached. I haven't broken 170 yet (and this week I doubt I will as it's PMS time again and that means I hold water). I didn't do the planking challenge that I set out to be a part of... I have just had so much going on this month that my specific fitness goals haven't been my focus. I mean, fitness is ALWAYS a focus of mine... I've been eating clean and keeping track of intake, but with so much else on my plate, I've been struggling.
So much uncertainty in my life and constant anxiety and fear make it really hard for me to focus on anything really. I mean, I haven't even been on any dates this month LOL got stood up twice and that was probably for the best...clearly my life isn't ready to be shared with anyone else.

8:30a
150 - 1/2 cup oats
100 - greek yogurt
200 - 2 cups natural apple sauce

2:00p
150 - 1/2 cup oats

I REALLY need to go grocery shopping today. I have almost nothing in my fridge because I didn't want to buy produce before I went home for the weekend.

3pm
100 - apple

Bike to/from gym. Legs: warm up, trx single leg squats, ballerina squats, side leg raises, round-the-world lunges, dead lifts, posterior leg raises, hamstring curl, leg extension, glute kickback
Wednesday my gym has free training for membership appreciation, so I got a 3pm with the head trainer. Pretty stoked.

5:30
100 - bag of slaw
0 - mustard & vinegar
70 - 1 tbsp chia seed
25 - roma tomato
140 - 2 Boca burger patties
...it's now 6pm and I haven't finished my dinner. I'm feeling full.

Went for a run... 2.6 miles. Check Nike+ :)

Biked to/from the grocery store...
9:00
140 - York peppermint patty (yeah, saw it when I was checking out and thought, yep, that's what I want LOL)

300 - SO much Artic Zero!! :))
.1480.

insomnia + pms = grrr

Well, tonight, as it happens at least once a week... I cannot sleep.
To make things worse, I'm PMSing so my cravings have been through the roof! If that's TMI for anyone, then you probably shouldn't read my blog. Anyhow, I'm up and after my splurge last night with junk I have been really down on myself. I have BIG goals for July and I'm failing so far. To make things worse, I am failing big time on the day I decide to go public with my journey and shared my link on facebook. Fuuuuuuuu!

I've been overwhelmed with the encouraging messages of congrats on my progress and the notes from friends, former classmates and followers letting me know that I have inspired them. I am SO touched and really, that motivates me. I'm just having a rough one. After the emo BS that went down Sunday, and my hormones being all over the place... I just want to be able to relax and focus.

I will track the oats I've eaten on Tuesday's food log. I plan to TRY to get some sleep and then really kicking my butt at the gym. Like, no slacking, I need to pretend a trainer is in my face and do the exercises I never do on my own, but know I should. The ones that are HARD and I struggle with... the ones that I feel for days after... the ones that work. My goal is to do 2 of the NTC HIIT workouts while at the gym. I might die HAHA but I need to work off being bad.

I've been hovering around the same weight for weeks now because of cheating and lack of focus. IT'S CRUNCH TIME!!! July goals are still attainable. I HAVE TO DO THIS! I know I'm always a little heavier "this week" so we'll see next week for weigh-in Wednesday, but seriously, I need to flush out the bad and rev up my furnace...get this body moving!


P.S.
Sleep is SO important in weight loss. I'll do a whole blog post about that... but for now, I need to try again.