insomnia + pms = grrr

Well, tonight, as it happens at least once a week... I cannot sleep.
To make things worse, I'm PMSing so my cravings have been through the roof! If that's TMI for anyone, then you probably shouldn't read my blog. Anyhow, I'm up and after my splurge last night with junk I have been really down on myself. I have BIG goals for July and I'm failing so far. To make things worse, I am failing big time on the day I decide to go public with my journey and shared my link on facebook. Fuuuuuuuu!

I've been overwhelmed with the encouraging messages of congrats on my progress and the notes from friends, former classmates and followers letting me know that I have inspired them. I am SO touched and really, that motivates me. I'm just having a rough one. After the emo BS that went down Sunday, and my hormones being all over the place... I just want to be able to relax and focus.

I will track the oats I've eaten on Tuesday's food log. I plan to TRY to get some sleep and then really kicking my butt at the gym. Like, no slacking, I need to pretend a trainer is in my face and do the exercises I never do on my own, but know I should. The ones that are HARD and I struggle with... the ones that I feel for days after... the ones that work. My goal is to do 2 of the NTC HIIT workouts while at the gym. I might die HAHA but I need to work off being bad.

I've been hovering around the same weight for weeks now because of cheating and lack of focus. IT'S CRUNCH TIME!!! July goals are still attainable. I HAVE TO DO THIS! I know I'm always a little heavier "this week" so we'll see next week for weigh-in Wednesday, but seriously, I need to flush out the bad and rev up my furnace...get this body moving!


P.S.
Sleep is SO important in weight loss. I'll do a whole blog post about that... but for now, I need to try again.

4th of July - holiday bust

Yesterday started out strong and then resulted in a bust of a day.
I was keeping track of my calories and even after my 8 mile bike ride to a picnic I was only around 900-100 intake so far for the day and feeling good.

But then I let myself have a drink.
I looked it up to make sure alcohol wouldn't make antibiotics stop working and it doesn't-- alcohol can just cause serious reactions (like sickness and fatigue) when you're on antibiotics. So I had 2 glasses of wine... and then I was around snack foods. My bane. Chips and guacamole. I destroyed that stuff. Burgers without buns, I had 2... yogurt pretzels, potato chips... I didn't seriously binge as there were always people around, but I easily had 3000 calories yesterday.

Busy Friday ahead of me, but gotta get back on track and work my butt off this weekend.

BIG GOALS THIS MONTH and I'm not going to let my poor decisions on the holiday take away from my success!