Obviously competing in strongman requires quite a bit of strength. As bittersweet as it may be, I have come to find that most of the very strong people I know have come from a whole lot of pain. Some may say that it takes a certain level of crazy to put yourself through the type of training required to complete in a strength sport. I laugh at this, well maybe it’s more of a nervous giggle, but I do think it takes a special something to be able to do the things required to push the body to any physical extremes.
The term "inner strength" has so much cliché attached to it that I really avoid trying to reference it. Lately I’ve had to focus on mine via self-care. Step 1, write more.
After winning my subclass at Nationals this year, Eli proposed. Of course I said yes... I was on cloud 9. I didn’t think it was possible to have a happier weekend! I’d been single for so long that I had convinced myself nobody would ever want to marry me. His love changed so much for me; unfortunately, as I’ve blogged about previously, post-competition blues got the better of me and I went into a very dark place. In my darkness, I became extremely negative... my negativity was received with anger and a few weeks later, the relationship is over... it feels like the world has been ripped from under my feet.
I won’t go into the other details of betrayal and heartache, but I will share what I’m focusing on now: I’m so grateful for the opportunity to learn life lessons. I’m thankful for the reminder than I am loveable and that I have a whole lot of love to give. I’m proud of myself for speaking up and always telling the truth. I’m reminded to always trust my gut & will continue to work on impulsivity--taking time to respond to things instead of reacting when emotionally charged. I am confident that I will come out of this pain even stronger.
The #igetoutalive challenge came with perfect timing and I jumped on board. I’ve been focused on self care via journaling, meditation, dancing, playing with my dog, treating my body right and LOVING MYSELF 💜 No matter what you’re going through, stay STRONG AS F*CK!
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