2013 lessons

Reflecting back on then past year, I am amazed by all of the transformations I've made in my own life. Emotionally, physically, priorities, ideals, directions, goals, career... flip. Everything.

I started 2013 on a low note. I went through one of the most emotionally and physically painful experiences of my life... and as I launched full force into a job I moved cross-country for, I thought 2013 was mine. Finally, my chance to prove all my doubters wrong.
By March I realized I wasn't moving forward. Physically I reached a scary upswing in my physical yoyo. I was depressed and anxiety was crippling. I moved into my own place and woke up by the end of March, knowing the girl I saw in the mirror didn't match who I was inside.
Inspired by fitspo pages on IG I made changes. I tore my Achilles just as I was getting started, but I worked through rehab and my clean diet was on point. By summer I was on point and my body finally matched the image I had in my head.
I started to let myself lift heavy and I not longer feared my muscles. I met a man who supported me and supported everything I was aiming for...but he wasn't completely available. I played a secondary role in his life while allowing him to sit shot gun in mine.
I left one career with aggrandized promises of a sure-shot into another. As I struggled during transition, the man who I gave my heart to walked away with ease (seemingly) and I have struggled through the holidays trying to heal without using my food addiction as a band aid.
So now I'm here. I find myself more motivated than ever.
Lesson learned: be #1
Never let yourself settle for less than you deserve. Never allow a man/woman put you in second place...no matter how much they make your heart smile... be the best version of you... chase dreams... when others doubt you, prove them wrong... focus in yourself... take care of #1... be grateful for the little things everyday... win.
" Two is not a winner and three no one remembers."
Be #1... focus in you, never settle for less than you deserve/want and you'll find balance.
I am number 1.
Here's to 2014...being the best version of me, yet aiming to constantly improve.
Live.Love.Laugh...and lift ;-)