Soft

Well, I've been struggling with all sorts of stuff lately...and yes, for a bit I was letting myself eat too many cheat foods. When I snapped out of that, I still found myself eating more than I should. I have kept working hard, but as we've all seen on fitspo mems, you can't out run a bad diet! Haha thing is I haven't gone for a run nor an actual cardio day in months! Haha ANYHOW... the stress I've been feeling because of my need for financial and emotional growth has let me get "soft."
Don't worry, I haven't been back sliding. I have overeaten, but kept it clean (still I shouldn't over eat)...but I was looking pretty hard for a while there and I have allowed myself to soften up.
I saw my best friend today after about 2 weeks and his reaction was unexpectedly positive! I mean, I haven't put in a lot (y'all have seen current pics on IG), but he is my "swolemate" and knows me better than anyone right now. Hearing my him simply encourage me to make sure I'm healthy and practicing good eating habits felt really good. He also reminded me to let myself feel good!!! And that, that is SO important.
He's right: when I get dressed and look my best, I radiate more confidence...and when you feel good, you attract more good vibes. Law of attraction! Boom.

So... my focus right now:
Be happy in my own skin.
- Don't freak out about diet
- Stay healthy and eat clean
- Don't sit around in PJs all day (get dressed and done up!)
Chase dreams.
- Get work!!!!
- Keep track of food to stay accountable.
- Heal (my hip needs rest)

So...I'm not freaking out about being softer. I am healthy! I'm letting myself embrace it and feel sexy in my skin!
Good things are going to happen.