Coming clean

So with all the temptations I have been fighting, I have definitely allowed myself more indulgences/cheats than I've earned. So...I haven't been eating super clean and I've put a few pounds on...nothing getting back to strictly clean for a week or two can't fix, but I went grocery shopping tonight and I'm stocked for the week (well, I need a few items from trader joes tomorrow). I'm going to workout 2-3 times a day for now... and eat strictly at net intake at my BMR.
I really wanna look good for Halloween! I really need to look good so I can get a job...several jobs.
Clean focus starts in the morning. No late eats tonight. Gonna medicate around 9 so I can fall asleep early and get after it tomorrow--workouts, job searching and follow ups with gyms I already contacted.
I am in control. I want to matter. I talked with my best friend today and he really made me feel like I matter...but he understands that as a professional I need to make a difference. I need to find MY success.
This is my time. 2014 will be the best me EVER!