I might hit the corner and start being a beggar... or maybe I should turn tricks? Maybe I'll just finance boobs so I can start being a stripper or porn... since I can't get a job as a trainer. Well, wait, I got offered one. I turned it down because I was under the impression I could do so much better and that I was a shoe-in for my dream gym.
I can't seem to get a job as anything. The last 10 years of my life have been nothing but a bounce house. I've jumped from one job to another... laid off, cut to part time due to budget/grants, moving, contract work, losing interest, and even fired. The good ol' self-esteem issue is back in FULL FORCE right now and I'm feeling pretty worthless. I want this dream SO badly. But today a new blow... it was getting sucker punched and then looking up to see the man who had been in my corner was now in the ring watering down my opposition.
Don't ever depend on anyone else. You need to be self-reliant. You cannot NEED anyone.
...but don't ever let your loved ones feel like they're dispensable...
Balance is hard.
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